DEAR GOD...
I Went for NorthE&G prayermeeting. I felt so weird. I dont know why too.
At first im really looking forward, but suddenly, i have th urge dont feel like going.
But i managed t force myself t go. cause i wanna please God(:
once i reached admiratly, my mind went blank, my heart flew.
& i start t compare cchy & admiratly. and also wanting t go back t cchy.
th atmosphere is totally different from cchy. i dont know how t describe th feeling too.
i really hate the feeling of being outcasted. when we were at junlin's place, i started t miss cchy every single one of them. suddenly i teared(i bet your didnt notice it). cause i dont wish t adapt changes.
I told qianwei and caroline that its a need t adapt changes, but i failed to.
I thought i can, but at th end i failed.
i wish t treat them as a part of cchy but i cant. cause cchy cannot be replaced.
restructuring in th unit again, take up a new sheep. shepherd changed.no more poineering. its indeed very sad, heart broken. I feel like today is really a day that pull me down.
its not a title for myself that matters, but i long t poineer. but i cant at th end.
i started t emo about it while in th bus, on th way t anqi's b'day clelebration.
thinking why God gave me this kind of false alarm? i dont know why either.
i keep playing happy song t cheer myself up but it fail.
only when i reach bottle tree park, i found th joy. but its a last joy that i had with them.
6months indeed past very fast. at first dont like t fellowship with them, but now started t regret about it. (Hebrews10:25) is my cg that love t use at most.
I still remember we spend time tgt near Bridget's house park for first unit outing.
still remember we took off our shoe t run all ard th park. and some of our legs injured.
we combine th cchy guys & gals t a caregroup at th end. we had fun every cg and svc.
we loved t spend time with one another. not forgetting my birthday celebration, asked me t run ard the crazy leg with th mooncake that t be eaten finished. a sweet video made by yuwen and Ace specially for me. Affrimation was sweet. second time th whole cchy celebrated for me(:
As you can see, i really appreciated those times that i had with you guys. you might not bear me, neither i cant bear you too. thanks for th skinny, elmo and unlimited cards for my b'day(:
like i said last month, probably its th last time i celebrate my birthday tgt with your.
and this year is really th last year.
we might go through alot of ups and downs, but now, we still here t serve God.
jiayous cchy(:
Sherry.
