sherry

2010-07-01T11:14:00.001+07:00

For people who still dont know i've moved on onsugar.
i tell you, you're a slowpoke. xD
I've moved! and relink asap!
www.superbjeann.onsugar.com

A friendship convenant.

2010-04-16T23:51:00.004+07:00

Ace's Convenant for Anqi & me;

I, EVERLYN KHOO YI TING ACE WILL BE HONESTY TO SHERRY LEE JEANNETTE AND CATHERINE AW AN QI AS I CLOSE MY HEART TO THEM. AND IN EVERYTHING I WILL HOLD ON WITH GOD. WHEN I WANT TO BACKSLIDE I WILL TELL THEM STRIGHT AWAY. GOD, I PRAY THAT I WILL CLOSED MY HEART WITH THEM AND I PRAY THAT I WILL LOVE THEM AND ACCEPT THEM WHO THEY ARE. WHEN WE HAVE CONFLICT WE WILL SOLVE WITH YOU. IN JESUS NAME I PRAY AMEN .

Anqi's Convenant for Ace & me;

hmm dear jeannette lee sherry, and ace khoo yi ting. this will be my convenant to both of you. Thank you for having all this 5years of memories as it's really hard and surprising that we're now together as one. but i got to tell you this. without you guys, i'm not where am i now and i wont be able to know who God is. Yes, now i really want to say this. I, myself, is going to put my life for this grades 4A. is going to be hard, is going to be ups and downs. but i know God is in control in this friendship hmm, really wish that we're going to support each other and i'm going to give my best to pull each and every single one of you to go nearer and nearer to God. no one is to fall but to keep moving we'll be a bunch of 4A who ppl see our lifes and they can see God. i'm going to be a salt and light and i wish to walk this race with all of you my convenant is to really Watch, Care and love every single one of you

My convenant for Anqi & Ace;

Me, hereby Jeannette Lee Sherry, ready t make a lastlong convenant with Ace Khoo Yi Ting & Catherine Aw An Qi. To be honest t each other. By not hiding anything within this convenant/friendship. & pray that we'll not lukewarm in our ministries, I pray that as our friendships getting along, guide us through your way. Let our friendships be stronger in You God. I pray that we wont fall apart. & I belive we're gonna hold hands and walk t heaven t get ready t meet you face t face. Thank You Jesus for this wonderful friendships that you've brought me t known and have for straight 5years. Let this friendship be a lastlong one, not temporary. Thank You Jesus, In your Name Amen!

2010-04-05T23:34:00.002+07:00

I had just received a very super shocking news from my mom that my aunt passed away.
She passed away ard 5pm today late afternoon. & at this time, i was sleeping.

Suddenly God strucked me this, my aunt passed away at that time i was sleeping.
But if i were use this time t share chirst t the people or her, they might saved from going t hell.
At that time, I'm really feel motivated by God to outreach more and more. Because I had came to realised that lives are unpredicdable. 0nce gone, is alr gone. No more 2nd life for us.

So, I shall not let time by-pass me. I shall step out of my comfort zone and to save people.
It is not a must to do. But its whether you want t do, or not to.

But afterall, hope my aunt will rest in peace. It's really a pity to hear that she has passed away without accepting Christ into her life. ):

2010-03-04T20:07:00.002+07:00

Woohoooo! I'm going t kukup during my school hos!
& fyi, I'm starting my hols in another 2weeks time. And its gonna be 1month hols. :p

eheheheheheheheheheh, dont jealous uh. HAHAHAHAHA!
& i love those wonderGAYS at bishan ;D
I think jas & pavi will know(:

2010-02-26T12:51:00.002+07:00

Hey you ;
I'm really sick & tired of you eh. seriously.
you used me for your own good. until now, then i realised.
In future, please stay away from me. As far and long as you can.

God, why am i suffering this? ):

2010-02-23T23:23:00.004+07:00

All right, I'm being Random(:

2010-02-23T15:45:00.003+07:00

A true relationship with God is not just reading th bible itself, not by gaining alot of knowledge in the word of God. Not just singing worship songs loudly.
But;
It's about our heart.
now, let's ask ourselves, is our hearts' numb until we're not even gonna care our walk with God anymore? Should we take some time to plan and talk t God?

C'mon! let the blood continue t flow.

2010-02-19T15:15:00.002+07:00

I thank God that my CS got 70% pass! =D
I'm soooo amazed by God. cause t say frankly, i didnt study for th CS test. really never.
And i still got passed! I really thank God for letting me pass! =D

Whoa, God you rock manzxzxzxzxz! (:

2010-02-12T15:06:00.002+07:00

All right, say me lazy if you want. 'cuz im not going t care.
Yup, you're right, these dusties all from my rooom! just been lazy and not sweeping th floor for 1week, & let's see the consequences. Staying at 2nd floor is a big big disadvantage -.-
Dust! i hate you! you made me missed service! -.- stay away my room from now in Jesus' Name, Amen! -.-''

All right, I had my CS & OSA test today.
Monday- EFC test
Wed- SBM test
Today- CS & OSA test

'Veli veli streesss.
I hope I can do well in SBM,CS & OSA(:
Pray, pray & pray! =D

2010-02-10T16:02:00.002+07:00

Imma C
Imma C-H
Imma C-H-R-I-S-T-I-A-N
& I have C-H-R-I-S-T
in my H-E-A-R-T
& I will L-I-V-E- E-T-E-R-N-A-L-L-Y
( and goes on and on)

Gonna be a christian in everywhere i go.
I have a new bed now! =D
But, i dont like it ):

2010-02-05T18:38:00.003+07:00

Chat with THEOPHILA ANG JINLIN via sms just now(:

Jin: Raymond Lam!!
I: My name now changed to Sherry Lam
Jin: Sherry leelam
I: walao, so disguisting! =x
Jin: Haha, so cute!
I: -.- I post this at blog can? cause I have nothing to do.
Jin: Hahahha! ok, EH POST ABOUT ME!
I: I dont want, cause my readers are not interested in you. Hahahhahaa! =x
Jin: Ahh! ):

Hahahahahahahahahah~ I'm bored.
Today school was okay okay. NO FOOL'S LESSON TODAY! =D
jasmine & me brought charger t school t charge our handphones. =x caught by ladycrosscross. we still dont care. continue t charge. hahahhahaha.
Thank God today no role play for CS!

OSA lesson was super ultra boring.
microsoft excel again, i dont feel like doing it =x
everytime 1 week can face excel for at least 3days ): (for paperwork!)
released at 12pm. Family affairs crop up. chionged home.
finished settling, then took a nap. & shepherding was changed t (i dont know when) =x
& today supposed to go outreach! hahahahahahahahah~

0hgosh, I seriously mad about Raymond Lam! =D
everyday going to school, I'll listen t his song(but not other song) from my house bus stop all th way to classroom outside. Ilovehim manzxzxzxzxzzz! Ahhhhhh!~
Jasmine & I thought of going to his concert if he came to singapore and hold a concert(:
I cant imagine he's alr 30plus. i thought he's just 20-25! hahaha!
okay la, enough of him. i know you guys are getting bored of me keep mentioning about him everywhere i go yea? haha!

bye people!
Gonna do cards and chiong projects le(:
Gosh, i dont know how to alocate roles t team memebers ):
God, help me(: Amen!

2010-02-03T22:30:00.002+07:00

Happy birthday Kamilia! you are 1 step nearer to heaven. Nola, just kiddin'! =D

Today class is really boring. I hate it.
Hope tomorrow will be better.
Should be impossible. cause LDPX is 3 freaking hours! only 10mins break.
hmmm, i hate it. but i feel that when i attend this lesson, i can feel that God is using my teacher t speak into my life. I dont know? but i just feel this way. whoa, what an amazing God(:

I'm gonna sleeep! and tomorrow livegroup!
Friday gonna outreach again. this time i shall pray and pray before outreaching!
We shall do this tgh with superb Daddy, Amen? (:

Nites everybody, miss me!
Sher.

2010-02-02T17:46:00.002+07:00

I'm bored to death ):

I'm so mad about raymond lam! =D

I'm not looking forward to fool's lesson tomorrow ):

I'm having section head talk and police talk tomorrow. surely im gonna doze off for sure.

I'm too tired to do anything. but still, im bored!

I miss the lady kiasu(jasmine) =D''

2010-02-01T16:54:00.007+07:00

Outreached at marsiling sec with Xueqing today. heheeees.
Th people over there very dao. most are all malays. I was shocked when i see there's small amount of chinese came out from the school gate. Gosh. Firday we're going to outreach at backgate. perhaps there's more chinese over there. hahahahaha~

After outreaching, went to buy something at cwp. realised th thing i want its alr sold out -.-
went to 888 plaza t buy instead.
Gonna chiong the card soon(:

anyways, wanna tell you guys that;
RAYMOND LAM ROCKS! The one who sings in cantonese.
Gosh, I melted when listening t one of his song called "愛不疚".
0hmy, kudos to Jasmine! we keep on listening during lessons and breaks. hahahaha!
made me so mad about it.
Thanks Jas! =D

Gonna do my card alr. bye people! =D

2010-01-31T22:43:00.007+07:00

I'M SUPER ULTRA SUPER ULTRA SUPER ULTRA EXTREMLY HAPPY! =D
SERIOUSLY VERY HAPPY, IS LIKE WOOOOHOOOO!

As i said before in my previous entry, that i wanna go outreach.
& guess what? there's one person suddenly out of no reason messaged me that she wants to join me in outreaching.
& guess who is this person??
IT'S MY SUPER ULTRA CUTE WONDER SHEEP NAMED; WAN XUE QING!

I really jump up from my chair and look at th message for th second time. At first i thought i was dreaming manzxzxz. hahah!
i really cannot imagine she really msged me that she wants t go outreach.
she told me that she had never been for outreaching before, so she wants to give a try.
Believe or not, i almost teared. cause i had never thought that she will have this kind of simple heart t invest her time and energy in God's kingdom. I'm really touched by her decision she made tonight. its like, seriously. Being a shepherd of her makes God and me so proud. But, overall the credits goes to God! Praise Him! =D

To: XueQing(:

Dear sheep, Believe it or not, I'm really happy. As in extremly happy for you.
you are the first sheep(new believer) took th initiative t tell me that YOU want t go outreach.
i really dont know what more can i say to you. but there's one thing i can assure you is that, whatever you said and whatever you do tomorrow during outreaching. one day, God will tap your shoulder and praise you. The angels above will happy for you. satan will jump here and there because he lose to God! =D jiayou sheep! you have the potential de. I believe once you become more like christ, you'll be everyone's living testimony.
I dont care how are you was in the past or even now. God cares for you in every single moment.
Trust in God that he will bring you t the green pastures. I dont believe you CANT do it. cause God tells you & me that YOU can do it(: remember sheep, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH GOD! =D

Lovely,
Sherry'your shep(:

God, I thank You for xueqing. really. Amen(:

2010-01-30T23:34:00.002+07:00

I'm refreshed! I'm feeling good. nahnahnahnahnah~
tomorrow gonna finish up my CS script. Yes, i shall do it with God(:

btw, I'm going outreaching & SOW starting from monday & friday!
who wants t join me??? (:
I'll be at marsiling secondary school outside t haunt for sec 1ssssssssssss. heheeeees.
I must invite people to service! i want to challenge myself to bring at least 1 contact! =D

who's on? (:

2010-01-29T13:05:00.003+07:00

Yesterday had GEN's prayer meeting at leow's place.
prayed for faith, faithfulness, growth in woodlands and the leaders.
Frankly speaking, from the time i started to grow as a christian. faithfulness doesnt lives in me.
Even it lives, its just only last for 2-3weeks. I should said, I didnt try hard enough t maintain my faithfulness in God.
perhaps i should say faithfulness gets along with discipline?

QT! still having a hard time t settle myself down.
QT needs discipline tooooooooo!!!~

God's flock, I'm still trying very hard how t maintain a better relationship with her & get her closer to God. ): say me IRRESPONSIBLE if you want. cause its the fact.

Prayer, these few days lazy t pray. always pray a short prayer before sleeping.
See, is this what we call a "FAITHFUL" christian?

Ahhhhhh~ God, I want to see you in my life. I dont want t live my days with th same thing on.
go to school, listening t presentations & etc.
I want to do something fresh with You. I had enough of this. ):
Father, watch over me. Dont let me fly. even though i fly, i wanna fly t you.
but;
NOT TO SATAN.

Amen, God i trust in you. Because i know, YOU CARES.

your faithful has always been there for me. the greatest love that i've never known(:

& before i end this "emo post" i went youtube to search for wierd song.
wanna share you guys, "the bana nahnahnah rap" heheeees(:

2010-01-27T17:10:00.002+07:00

SHIOK! today start school at 11am, & ends at 2pm.
Suppose t be 3pm released, but MrLing is on MC. so we dismissed early.

Today had Fool's lesson again. She yelled at us. th way she yelled really funny.
Jasmine & I tried really very hard to control our laughter.
her lesson is really boring. thank God our class advisor is not her. heheees!

& lastly, i wanna say ;
i must jiayou le! i must get into higher nitec.
cause higher nitec minium GPA must get 2.8
but, i wanna get 3.7. i wanna get into admin! =D

2010-01-25T14:52:00.003+07:00

School was fun! Joke with pavi, idah & th irritating jas.
Jas & me sang CNY songs loudly during break. SBM teacher also heck care us. hahahaha~

Had finished presenting SBM presentation. the next shall be OSA. Gosh!..
& all thanks to Jasmine, giggling all th way when im presenting.
the class thought we both nuts. -.-

OSA lesson did nothing much. cause i had done finished th presentation slides. now only waiting t ask t present. Ha!
eddtiting my slides half way, someone called me & yelled at me.
i shall not say who is HE.
so, of course, i've teared. pavi & idah and th class were shocked.
As they saw me happy and crazy all along and suddenly my tears dropped.
its really indeed shocking. haha!

& wanna thanks one special people, JASMINE! she helped me t deal with this problems. thanks ya! tomorrow S&W ):
gosh i hate th teacher, th lesson. arghhhhhhhh~

2010-01-24T09:17:00.002+07:00

For all I care. I'm not going to give it a damn.
You didnt think of my feeling. why should i think of your feelings too?
I hate you to the core. I bet YOU dont know.
You can think its my fault. Then I can say its YOUR fault.
别以为你很了不起。
byebye(:

* you should know who you are babe(:

2010-01-07T20:17:00.003+07:00

Ha, hey school was fun from wed till now! =D
Pavi taught me tamil t "suan" jasmine.
Idah taught me how t say malay words too! =D

they kept laughing at me cause my pronounciation for tamil really sucks. haha!
yeah, I had a new nickname, loudspeaker. haha, all thanks t jas, pavi and idah. Ha!
I had a great time with them. hope that we can get t know each other more deeper (:

2010-01-03T01:00:00.002+07:00

[i][c=7][a=1] kamilia (: <3[/a][/c][/i] says:
eh i jus went to cchy website i saw the timetable for 1st day and 2nd day at sch i feel sad sia

Sher. says: why?

[i][c=7][a=1] kamilia (: <3[/a][/c][/i] says: i miss cchy Lol

Sher. says: LOL. you made me go into th cchy site now. haha!

[i][c=7][a=1] kamilia (: <3[/a][/c][/i] says: LOL sorry la

Sher. says: haha i miss chy!

[i][c=7][a=1] kamilia (: <3[/a][/c][/i] says: LOL cchy will nvr be replace de

Sher. says: i quite miss ms Tan eh.

[i][c=7][a=1] kamilia (: <3[/a][/c][/i] says: NOO i hate her LOL she kinda biased

Sher. says: haha, cause i told her that i wanna work hard and yet i kept disappointed her

[i][c=7][a=1] kamilia (: <3[/a][/c][/i] says: LOLOL

Sher. says: haha

[i][c=7][a=1] kamilia (: <3[/a][/c][/i] says: idk wht to say

Sher. says: i cant imagine that we're all cchy's alunmi now. haha!

[i][c=7][a=1] kamilia (: <3[/a][/c][/i] says: LOLOL? sometimes they say boyfriends can
change,but husband only got one eg,we can change friends,but cchy 4A09 will nvr change the only one

Sher. says: yes!!!!!! =D

[i][c=7][a=1] kamilia (: <3[/a][/c][/i] says: LOL

Sher. says: i now listening t graduation song. and th prom night dance's song.

[i][c=7][a=1] kamilia (: <3[/a][/c][/i] says: walao D; dunwan listen to you if nt i will cry de

Sher. says: thats why im helping you t learn t control your emotions well. haha!

[i][c=7][a=1] kamilia (: <3[/a][/c][/i] says: LOL

2010-01-01T23:24:00.002+07:00

I have insecurity in me right now ):
I have the feel that I'll get influence by the people in ITE ):
I have mix feeling right now.
Argh! God ah help me! )):

2009-12-21T14:54:00.002+07:00

As I've went through every single entries in my blog on '09. mostly is all about schools,studies,cliques.
i can really see how much i hold on t th things that i have in '09 or even now.
like for example,
-Grad Nite'09 dance pratise. our class made the most noise ever -.-
-The shakers have came together since 2008 before it is called "SHAKErs"
-We always get t watch movie in every single mother tougue lesson. (Not forgetting how's our MT teacher's lame-ness)
- Still not forgetting Form teacher flip his desk over, as he's so super angry -.-
- also not forgetting Form Teacher had cried as we act a short skit for him on stage for Teacher's day'07
- always quarrel with kam (even we still have) haha!
- bearing each other's sucky attitude for 4 entire years.
-chiong-ing projects. (esp D&T)

And finally, we had come t th end of our kiddish nonsensical acts. we're all young adults.
we're going t different path next year, & i do really hope you all will do well and excel in your repsective courses you're in(:
but i really hope and wish that though we're not th same anymore, but our friendship still remain as good as before(:
remember t meet up for gathering at least and most importantly, let us not forget each other!!
Sherry..

2009-12-08T12:36:00.002+07:00

How can WE not be selfish?
How can WE not be self-centered?
How can WE not to sin?
How can WE not sharing the GOSPEL!

You & me will regret one day. IF we not doing anything for the world.
Trust me, YOU WILL.

2009-12-07T10:07:00.002+07:00

God: I trust you.
Me: Really? You very sure?
God: I trust you.
Me: Ha, really? are you very sure?
God: I trust you.
Me: Ignore for a some time.
God: Child. I TRUST YOU. YOU SHOULD BELIEVE ME.
Me: okay God, in You, I trust.

See, how great is our God (:

2009-11-24T19:23:00.002+07:00

Yesterday last shepherding with my 2mehmehs was fun =D
many times we got sabbo into th sea water. We even played chop-chilli-chop in the water.
We had fun splashing water here & there. rided double bike with yuqing for awhile, we kept almost falling down. because yuqing keep saying "staeady ah steady ah" it makes me have even lesser faith in her as she's sitting infront. LOL
& also, not forgetting alot of funny incident when we clear all the sands in our body. haha
we even bring our own LUNCHBOX there. haha! thank God for Ace for buying tibits =D

& after all, the times that we spent its really indeed memorable(:
I'll miss them! =D

2009-11-20T22:29:00.003+07:00

DEAR GOD...
I Went for NorthE&G prayermeeting. I felt so weird. I dont know why too.
At first im really looking forward, but suddenly, i have th urge dont feel like going.
But i managed t force myself t go. cause i wanna please God(:
once i reached admiratly, my mind went blank, my heart flew.
& i start t compare cchy & admiratly. and also wanting t go back t cchy.
th atmosphere is totally different from cchy. i dont know how t describe th feeling too.
i really hate the feeling of being outcasted. when we were at junlin's place, i started t miss cchy every single one of them. suddenly i teared(i bet your didnt notice it). cause i dont wish t adapt changes.
I told qianwei and caroline that its a need t adapt changes, but i failed to.
I thought i can, but at th end i failed.
i wish t treat them as a part of cchy but i cant. cause cchy cannot be replaced.

restructuring in th unit again, take up a new sheep. shepherd changed.no more poineering. its indeed very sad, heart broken. I feel like today is really a day that pull me down.
its not a title for myself that matters, but i long t poineer. but i cant at th end.
i started t emo about it while in th bus, on th way t anqi's b'day clelebration.
thinking why God gave me this kind of false alarm? i dont know why either.
i keep playing happy song t cheer myself up but it fail.
only when i reach bottle tree park, i found th joy. but its a last joy that i had with them.
6months indeed past very fast. at first dont like t fellowship with them, but now started t regret about it. (Hebrews10:25) is my cg that love t use at most.

I still remember we spend time tgt near Bridget's house park for first unit outing.
still remember we took off our shoe t run all ard th park. and some of our legs injured.
we combine th cchy guys & gals t a caregroup at th end. we had fun every cg and svc.
we loved t spend time with one another. not forgetting my birthday celebration, asked me t run ard the crazy leg with th mooncake that t be eaten finished. a sweet video made by yuwen and Ace specially for me. Affrimation was sweet. second time th whole cchy celebrated for me(:
As you can see, i really appreciated those times that i had with you guys. you might not bear me, neither i cant bear you too. thanks for th skinny, elmo and unlimited cards for my b'day(:
like i said last month, probably its th last time i celebrate my birthday tgt with your.
and this year is really th last year.

we might go through alot of ups and downs, but now, we still here t serve God.
jiayous cchy(:
Sherry.

2009-11-19T23:46:00.002+07:00

Hello! I'm here again! =D
Kamilia pestering me t update my blog. so i shall blog something in case she keep nagging at me.

today went t shepherd Ace, while i was taking bus858, there's a bus 965 beside my bus. kamilia messaged me;

Kamilia- eh you wearing yellow color tshirt right?
Sherry- yah, how you know?
Kamilia- my bus beside you just now.
Sherry- Really?! I didnt notice that, where are you going?
Kamilia- North point pass everlyn's shorts.
Sherry- haha! Me too, meet you at starbucks there ;)

So at starbucks outside, we stand in th middle of th entrance. & of course we are blocking people's way. haha! we talked for 10mins like that? then Ace & me keep singing a song kajiao kamilia. LOL.
happened t saw Glenn & Brandon's brother at north point too. stupid kamilia suddenly say loudly this;
kamilia- whoa, i know you wish the school prom night DJ is ..... , i know you also want ....... & ........ also.
Glenn keep on laughing so loudly and brandon's brother shocked. -.-

SO ALL THIS, ALL THANKS T NUR KAMILIA BTE JAMALUDIN!
we meeting each other at admiratly tomorrow for lunch. haha! cause my new unit meeting also at admiralty. so decided t meet her up t spend time(:

P.S I MISS SHAKERS BADLY!!! )):
(sherry,huimin,anqi,kamilia,everlyn)= SHAKERS
dont ever forget okays!

2009-10-31T22:59:00.001+07:00

This story is 60% similar t my current family affairs now.
I had never know that a joy in doing things i like will become a suffering for me.

2009-10-19T23:11:00.003+07:00

i came t update my blog it doesnt mean i'll update it every single day.
But I hope that you guys out there still remember me okay(:

From today, i had started t fast one meal, chilli and worthy song.
so far, i broke one fast. i accidentatly ate chilli! oh well, God, i repent.
chilli is hard t fast man, but i trust God that i can do it.

Yesterday was chatting with Ebelle on msn, haha, i had a great time with her.
she likes teddy bears but dislike care bears. haha! i dont know has any diffrence. haha!
but through this, we can get t know one another well. heheees.
*p.s hey ebelle, if you happen t see this post, you must feel that i enjoyed th great time arguing with you on msn! haha!

Followed up qianwei today, we played colour hide-and-seek. I had been a lousy player. always caught t be th catcher. haha! i promise myself not t play this game anymore. haha! but overall is fun(:

2009-10-13T22:18:00.002+07:00

hey people, sorry for not updating my blog =x

well, kinda lazy t update, haha.

Today went cycling with Ace,Xinru & Kejing. We had soo much laughter. but most of it its about me. haha! so i shall share since its intresting =D

Th three of them went t east coast first. I'm late so i took bus from woodlands. I called a brother regarding how t make a trip t east coast from woodlands interchange. He said take 963, so i took all th way t clementi, i felt something is wrong. So I alighted at th next stop and called xinru. th place is so ulu ulu one. infront of me looks like a forest. behind me is an super old building. so when i called Xinru up, she said east coast is at th east side, clementi is at th west side. she also mentioned that 963 cant get me t east coast. I was stunned there, and dont know what t do! haha!

So Xinru asked me t took a bus which has reach bedok interchange as it is nearer t east coast.

when i look at th board, bus 196 need t have another 50 stops t reach bedok interchange! i was stunned, i told them these they cant helped but laugh out loud. haha!

while i was in th bus, i keep on moving as my ..... was sooo pain like nobody business.

from woodlands take 963 so loong like nobody's business, then when alight i still gonna take another 50 more stops t bedok. haha! can you imagine i tour ard th singapore myself?! haha!

& thank God, this bus brought me t th bus stop where is nearer t east coast, i alighted at there.

I called xinru up and said i almost reaching east coast alr, then she shouted t th people, "YEA! SHERRY IS FINALLY REACHING SOON!' -.-

so went there, rent a bike and ride all th way t changi

when i reach changi and i saw them, they told me that her renting time for bike has up.

i was like "uh? i rent 2hrs, then th people give me 1more hour free" meaning i need t ride until 8pm plus! haha! then they all kept laugh at me. -.-

so no choice, ride half an hour, and went back t return t bike. after that go home(

on th way home we did talk alot of ministries. haha xinru also say we've gorwn le!!

woohoo!

p.s Xinru!!! I want t go out with you more next time!!!

haha! i want alot of jokes and your unglam pics!!!! -.-

2009-10-07T20:24:00.002+07:00

yea! I wanna thank God that he made N'level CPA thoery paper soooo easy until i manage t finish it in 45mins when th time given t us is 8am-9.15am! yeah!
but nonetheless, there were a few careless mistakes. wanted t correct it but no time. )):
After exams, our form teacher let us see our final testomials, he said im a good listener, produce high standard of work and blah blah blah. Cause he's trying t make my/wholeclass' testomials as positive as possible.

haha, i couldnt believe that he realised im a good listener, am i right kamilia?! ahah!
he even says i positive in dont know what area. haha.
when i see kamilia's testomials, i realised Mr Tan wrote that she has a very good interpersonal skills, then i was thinking, "huh?, i think you only have auditionsea's skills" haha!

that's how i suan her.
but t think th other way, i think after 12oct09, it will be my last time with my classmates.
4years is really a memorable one. i wish i could stay back, but i dont wish to.
i hope that 10yrs/ i should say next year down th raod, my friends would be able t reconise me as how i am, and i will become blacker! =D
((:

2009-10-05T08:29:00.004+07:00

Hi, eveybody.

surprise t see me here? haha!
actually th reason i do not want t update its simply because th blogger encountered something weirdo. & its a long long story. haha!
so just now, i was just trying t log in, and surprisingly, i can update like how i do now! haha!
haha!

So, I will OFIICIALLY leave chung cheng high school yishun on the 12october2009. As i had finished my entire N'level papers on this day. haha!
So, your wont see me in cchy uniform, but rather next year, im going t wear ITE uniform.

p.s: I told some of my friends that i dont wish t go ITE.
i rather study in private college. & i dont know whether will my parents allow me to.
If i cant get in, i think ITE is also quite a better choice for me(:

And last but not least,
I just want t tell everybody that kamilia is really sucha annoying person.
she never fails t scold me a pile of vulgar. haha!
So kmailia, if you ever had t see this, then i think you should take time t reflect and change. HAHA! just kiddin' eh!

2009-07-14T20:09:00.002+07:00

Seriously, i am very angry with myself.
why am i doing nothing for the kingdom of God?!
Arent i made a promise to God that i will grow chungcheng?! and now?! so far, what had i done?!
I did nothing at all. I still at my comfort zone!

How i wish i can give myself a one tight slap unto my face and asking myself this "what are you thinking right now"
what had i done through out these entire month of july?
Have i been salt & light? have i been doing well in my studies?
I can say a big big NO straight away.
I admit i did not represent christ well!

& i am soo freaking stupid, praying to God and wanting him to pour cchy more and more.
but i'm still standing there and wanting people t come t me.
hah! how naive am I.

Sherry ah, you just dont know what is your level of your stupidility.

2009-07-05T23:28:00.003+07:00

okays, i know that i had not revived my blog for dont know how many freaking days alr.
haha, and i also dont know what t post.

But i shall type out my time table for next week's appointment for my sheep for th informal shepherding and other friend's appointement.

today- cg!
tuesday- Not free! go home sleep!
Wednesday- I'm free too!
Thrusday- im soo free.
Friday- free
satur- not free!
sunday- free.

pls jio me out okays!
informal shepherding will be at somewhere ard serangoon dont know what CC with Ace, combine with anqi and yuwen's sheepie! haha!

byesbyes! Anqi just cant control her emotions. hais!

2009-06-26T23:41:00.004+07:00

(photos by yuqing/kejing/ace)

sherry lovesssssssssssssssssssssss her caregruop! NorthA3 to the coreeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Sherry enjoyyyyyyyyyyyysssssss her caregruop outing at wild wild wet tgt with NorthA3!!!!!!!

sherry enjoy playing ular laaaaaa & th slide tgt with Yuqing & Ace even though she's screammmmmms like hell!

sherry enjoyssssssss sabboing her sheep while playing chilli chop in th middle of th pool tgt with NorthA3!!

sherry enjoysss having a wonderful dinnerrrr at just'Acia tgt with NorthA3, (not forgetting how they serve th ice cream for me)

sherry enjoyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyys playing with her guigui after came home.

& now sherry wantsssssssssssss to jump t her bed and say byebye t the worlddddddddd!

2009-06-24T15:25:00.002+07:00

seriously, i didnt knew things turns out like this.
perhaps, i need time t reconsider again & again.

Actually i'm not emoing.
serious(:

*But, i pray that things will turns out better.

I just dont understand

2009-06-22T19:15:00.002+07:00

First, I want to remind myself not to treat God as my;

#1) 24hours 7-11.
- cause i dont want t seek him only when im in trouble. then i'll leave him alone when i dont need him. (does God deserve such attitude?)

#2) spare tyre.
- when we need him then bring him out. dont need him then let him stay forever inside th car.
(who do we think God is?)

#3) Dog.
-ask him come and help and he'll come.
(no diffrence between God and a dog)

Let's us think, are we doing one of this thing above at least 1 time t God?
do you know how God feels? God died for us not to be slaves for us.
God died for us is to save us.
we are not even appreciated it but we did these t God, dont we think we had gone overboard?
God done nothing wrong, why he gets all these from his OWN CHILD?

* Also, just now chatted with Yuqing, she said alot of people laughing at Jesus just because he's so stupid until he died for th people.
& that point of time, i was so angry. i told her this

"they just simply do not know why Jesus wants t die.
they thought that jesus has nothing better t do, so allow people t crucifiy him."

I dont know why they want t make fun of this. is it very funny until they can take God t take it as their joke? they just simply dont know th reason behind that why Jesus choose to die for us!
& now, i had finally come to th sense that there's a urgency in sharing chirst t those people.
if we are not going t explain t them, their doubts will getting deeper and deeper.

2009-06-21T16:15:00.003+07:00

woohoo! I'm sooooooo superrrrr duperrrrrr happpyyyyyyyyy!
because there's one more convert in my classssssssss 4A!!!!!!!!!!!
5 Y-hopers in 4A!

God, i pray for this new seed will not fade away.
I pray that she will stand firm in things she do and always put you as her first piority.
continue t pour alot of your blessings unto her and let her cup overflows.
We'll be continue praying for this new sister.
In jesus name I pray, Amen.

woohoo! zhaorong! you got it finally!

2009-06-19T00:58:00.000+07:00

ahha! xiao zhu and xiao gui so cute!
so hiliarous!

2009-06-18T17:08:00.003+07:00

In ninteen-nintynine, evergreen was founded to nature youth so fine.
We raised a golden banner, which proudly proclaimed.
for each of our endeavours.
This is our aim.

[chorus]
Evergreen our evergreen, pure in act and joy in learning.
We'll give our best, we'll do our part.
To live life with a golden heart.
Evergreen you are the reason to be keen, evergreen you give the vision we have seen.
We'll stand up tall with heads held high.
We'll give you all to touch, the sky.

A vision to be bold, A mission to uphold.
together we will strive.
We'll be strong and happy.
We'll be warm and true.
one day we will see, our vision coming true.

[chorus]
Evergreen our evergreen, pure in act and joy in learning.
We'll give our best, we'll do our part.
To live life with a golden heart.
Evergreen we are the reason to be keen.
Evergreen you give the vision we have seen.
We'll stand up tall with heads held high.
We'll give you all to touch, the sky.

Haha! I'm so proud of my primary school song.

2009-06-17T10:57:00.004+07:00

Yesterday I done my devotion book 3 for th first day.
It's about influencing.
16 june 09

-Dont you think it's soooo stupid t let yourself got influence? or worst still, your friends might influence you th wrong and you still dont came t realised it.
-Dont you think it's also stupid t make yourself popular just t get along with those friends whom are popular? They are not that perfect as God is, so why soooo STUPID t follow them?!
We have our life t live on, we dont need t follow our friend's decision t move on. Then we might as well let our friends control our lives.
-Dont you ever think of wanna influence other people/friends that is close t you?
seriously, it's sooo good t influence people by using your testimony and gospel.
I tried this before, and th feeling was sooo awesome.
If we share our testimony, blessings and etc t our friends, at least they can know how real is God.

or what if your friends got touched by our testimony and they said yes t God straight away?
All these we might not know when will it happens, but overall is, it's better than people influence you yea?
Trust me, th feeling is sooooo shiok when you influence your friends. PROVIDED you influence in th right way.

2009-06-16T10:30:00.003+07:00

Whoever loves Joe cheng will love this.
ohmygod! He rocks lah!

2009-06-15T22:43:00.002+07:00

I dont what t say so that i can catch my conviction.
All I wanna say is, I wanna be unstoppable for God. Only him.

& sherry is also very happy that she found th true joy for serving in her own ministry(usher) at last! Praise God!

God, I thank you this life that you've given me t live life t th fullest.
& God, I wanna pray that I will continue t share th gospel t my friends/family/relatives around.
Let me be unstoppable for your work.
I dont know what more I can say, but after we had repented on th second day of camp together as a whole North, my heart started t get refreshed, is like my heart is back t a plain one. It's so so so comfortable.
& God, now, I had learnt t forgive & forget. Let me forget about th past memorise and let me continue t let me serve you whole heartedly.
Nothing can stop me from loving you cause i choose t love you.

I thank you in advance for this life again, for letting me t carry on with my life with a lighten heart.
I pray that, you'll let me be more dicipline in knowing your word and t also read your word.
I know you'll answer my prayer.
So God, I commit myself unto your hands and I pray hard that I will continue t serve you whole heartedly, In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

I will not post th camp photos here. but I'll put it at facebook.
cause I find it no point sharing pics here(:

2009-06-08T22:39:00.012+07:00

ohmygod!
How I wish I can rap like him!
Love him t th core manxzxz!

& also not forgetting JOE CHENG!(Jiang Zhi shu in ISWAK 1&2)
He rocks!

*So, should I, or should not?

2009-06-08T20:08:00.001+07:00

Oh dear. I think I had lost th excitement for th camp.
I dont this t happen. God, bring back that excitement. please God.
I dont want this camp t just only play,eat, sleep.
I wanna take this camp t meet you and t know you.
Bring me back t your presence.
In Jesus name, Amen.

The 10 rules.

2009-06-06T23:01:00.005+07:00

Therefore ;

I dont need a big & holy bible t walk around and let people know that I'm a powerful christian.
I dont need any leader t affirm me in public t let th people know that how powerful am I.
I dont need t act as holy as I can be.
I dont need t wear a big big cross necklace t let people know that I love God.
I dont need t say/blog any flowery talk for God.
I dont need t get all th attention from everybody.
I dont need t SHOUT "I LOVE GOD" in public loudly and let people know that you really love God.
I dont need t anybody t recongise me as a "L"
I dont need t sing christian song loudly and let people know that I'm crazy for God.
I dont need t pray so loudly t let people know that I'm the powerful woman of God.

& Sum it all up, i wanna say is ;
If you have a SIMPLE HEART for God, that would be enough for God t work through you(:
It's all starts with us, it's a choice for us t serve, or not to.
Amen.

2009-06-06T08:31:00.003+07:00

People, I didnt realise that Unstoppable Camp is on th next friday, i thought there's still a long time.
& you can see one thing from me through this?
How sinful am I. haha!

2009-06-04T20:09:00.002+07:00

Oh! I seriously cant imgaine myself getting for these spiritual giftings.
& I'm proudly t say that I have 2 new giftings and it is;
Hospitality, Encouragement, Discerment and Craftmanship.
Discerment & craftmanship is what I got from God.
haha! I still remember I prayed t God that I want Discerment, and I never thought that God really gave it t me! yeah! God, you rocks yea!

uhms okay, but i want music badly. Never mind, I shall ask God(:
I wanna be spiritually GREEDY. Amen!
Well, actually caregruop went bowling and after that went t Yuwen's house t have dinner.
& our FEAST for DINNER is MAGGIE MEE. It's nice! LOL.

Finish eating then while was listening t one of th song, and makes me wanna learn handstand. lol!
So Isabel joined me too. had alot of fun. & we've failed alot of times. but never mind.
I'll try next time(:

2009-06-03T21:59:00.002+07:00

Went t WFL together with Isabel Ang.
After WFL, she said she wanna take bus home. Took 65 at first t tampinese interchange then take 969. she said th next bus stop has 854 which can go t yishun and change bus, and when we alight th bus, we realised that th bus stop do not have 854! Lucky have bus 22, so we took t tampinese interchange then change t 969.
While in th bus, watched Little nonya. Watch little nonya= listening comprehension.
cause th TV doesnt show any screen! LOL

Isabel ate MacDonal at bus 969! somemore we're in th crowded bus, -.-
but she managed t eat finish in th shortest time of 15mins.
Reach home 9pm sharp! LOL.
Lucky never get scolded, but freaking tired now. wanna sleep luhs.
byes people.

Distance are getting far far away.
I dont wish t see your face.
you just fade away.
how can i not happy?

2009-05-24T08:48:00.002+07:00

I thank God for not giving me up though I'm hopeless.
He used me to be his vessle, running those blood of passion for the people.
I'm not regret, not a single bit.
I love you Lord, and I am yours.
I'll continue to live my life with more meaningful things around me.
& I'll live t carry on your compassion until I see you here.
& I believe that this world will not be changed unless you are here.
God, Use me. I'm clean before you.
Use me more, more & more, more & more.
More that I can do alot more for you.

I cant do things myself.
Cause I dont have that ability t do it.
only you are th one that is always beside me, can gives me th strengh that i wanna crave th most.
& I believe that I can changed alot more, in your mighty name!
Let me help you t complete those uncompleted things. Let me hang your name up high in all over th world.
Also let me go beyond what I can do.
I will be more glad that I'm use by you. seriously.

God, my life, you decide.
i dont have th right as this is not my life.
because you give me this life.
you can take control all of it.
Listen & listen & listen t my heartbeat once again, and realised my passion is burning.
Amen & Amen.

2009-05-20T15:43:00.004+07:00

Okays, Guess what?
I failed my maths & D&T AGAIN.
Yes, again & again. They are not my good friend.

But there's one thing i can say is all subjects including maths & D&T had shown big improvement and for my rest of th subjects, which i really thank God for.
Although I failed these 2 subjects but I believe that God will let me pass my N'level for my maths and D&T next time.

I hope when i listed out my mark, please dont give insult comments t me, you are not that pro in all subjects either.

English- 74/120
Maths- 19/100 (Improved 17marks)
EBS- 83/120
CPA- 74+/120
D&T- 7/50(improved by 5marks)
MT- (15/20) (Highest tgt with Huimin)

Hey, I'm not trying t show off those subjects I got th highest or th lowest.
& yes, I will continue t work hard for my maths & D&T. seriously. haha!
I pray that God will make me shine in 4A'09! ;D

& also wanna pray that my dad would give me money for camp! (:
I pray! that I'll get it!
I trust in God alone(:

2009-05-17T12:57:00.002+07:00

I wanna proclaim this 3 words loudly;
GOD, YOU ROCK!
Because of you, i can go for camp!
Because of you, my life changed!
Because of you, I had miracles!
& Because of you, I WILL CONTINUE TO STAND FIRM!

One more time I will say;
GOD, YOU SERIOUSLY ROCKS LIKE NOBODY BUSINESS!

2009-05-16T20:00:00.002+07:00

God, in you i will not waver.
with you in me, I will stand strong.
I pray & pray continously that my dad would bless me that $100 for camp.
just only $100. I hope you will soften dad's heart.
Please God, bless me only that $100.
I believe that this money will not go in th drain, but it'll all be worth it.

God, i want t pray not for myself alone, but i wanna pray those who cant go for camp like me or those who dont have money that you will bless them as well.
Let them know that you are real in their lives.
God, we believe that in you, all things are possible, God I trust you.
I put my 110% trust in you.

In jesus I pray, Amen(:

2009-05-06T18:00:00.002+07:00

I had not blogged for 4 freaking days and I had received 400+ messages NC20 of dirty tags by kamilia and anqi.
Lucky I had managed to delete all ;D
& the most unlucky thing is, i wanted t put my blog private, but i dont know how!!!!
shiat you! LOL.
okay, exam is coming on the next day, th subject will be MATHS!!!!!
I seriously can die infront of th paper, seriously!
but at least i hope that I will try my very best(:
Going to study luhs, bye people, i think I back t blog after my exams(:

2009-05-02T21:04:00.005+07:00

Today ushered! I've got t know 4friends in my team(:
Lengna(longlong time ago), Cassey, HuanYi and Mingyee(longtimeago)

We had alot of laughters while ushering lahs! It's really damn funny. Minyee & accompany including me attracted alot of attention after service while cleaning up th nexus. LOL.

After ushering went to "just acia" have lunch over there. LOL.

& i lost th way! i dont know how to get there, so i took 10mins to walk th entire dhobby ghuat MRT station.

Brandon hates th smell of mayonniase. LOL. then their people keep making of him. LOL.

I consistantly helping Anqi to refill her pepsi lah! she drank it total 3cups i think, omg!
3cheers t her.

After a heavy lunch there, met kamilia at somerset Mac for our D&T project.

Alot of laughters has been created by us in th Mac.

Anqi & kamilia keep taking my things without me notice it. LOL.

& they keep laughing at alot of things, and i think i mostly forgot 'bout it. LOL

Do finish our journal, then went t PS, on th way saw .... then Anqi shouted at th name.

I hope ... will not notice it. if not I mati.

went to starbucks t take broucher for EBS coursework.

Anqi saw Pastor Shirley, Anqi shouted her name, ps shirley turned and she thought that i was th one shouting her name. LOL.

so she waved at me, i wave her back. LOL

Basement 1 inside PS, there's a prize station which insert just $1 then you can get a free soft toy IF you are lucky.

Kamilia just tried her luck ONCE and she got a soft toy!!! & i so "ji dong" so she thought that i want her not t get th toy.

omg, she accused me. see, how sad am i now. lol

happyhappy, then after that go home with Kamilia, anqi went t find her friend(:

so that's it(:

A random tought.
Tell me th truth, am i really that white?

whiter than a angmoh? lol.

2009-04-26T08:41:00.002+07:00

Miss Greyish. says:
LOL
I yesterday more funny mans!
walao, lucky you are not w me ah.

One thing says:
y

Miss Greyish. says:
you will surely pang seh me one

One thing says:
u fall down again

Miss Greyish. says:
I stayed back w anqi after playing L4D t do th D&T project at centre point MacDonal.
After finishing that, we wanted t go home already then we walked to somerset MRT.
I didnt KNEW that somerset MRT dont have th escalator to go down!
So when i see th staircase, anqi and me were so shock lahs!
then no choice i go down step by step and how i know i cause a human traffic behind me.

One thing says:
oh same like cuppage

Miss Greyish. says:
haah!

One thing says:
human traffic jam

Miss Greyish. says:
whao, next time i go home i go dhobby ghuat there take MRT lahs.
i was so ps lohs!

One thing says:
lolx u shld say pls sympathize me i sprain my leg

Miss Greyish. says:
LOL
you and yuqing planning t throw me t th sea uh?

One thing says:
lolx hw u knw
do bring xtra tee to standby

Miss Greyish. says:
walao, your bully baika. ):
At th MRT we saw Yu lan teacher.
anqi keep shouting her name as yu lang.
you know yu lang means Jurong, then i ask her, her name is yu lan, not jurong(yu lang)

One thing says:
lol
nxt time if u guyz did this dun say we are the same cg

Miss Greyish. says:
walao.

One thing says:
lolx so embarassing

Miss Greyish. says:
haha, www.thpure-perfection.blogspot.com
see my blog

One thing says:
sure
are u trying to hint me to throw u down
ok sure

Miss Greyish. says:
NO.
I'm trying t hint Xinru that you all want t bully me ):

One thing says:
she wont de unless u tel her to go visit ur blog

Miss Greyish. says:
omg.
you tell her.
haha

One thing says:
no way

Miss Greyish. says:
cannot bully baika lahs.
you all hor, ! chek ai lehs

One thing says:
lolx nw thn u knw

Miss Greyish. says:
you CL can like that mehs?
LOL
CARELEADER means MUST CARE FOR YOUR PEOPLE!

One thing says:
aiya like say till CL muz wt like tht
CL is to torture ur ppl

Miss Greyish. says:
nonono

One thing says:
n care less for ur ppl

Miss Greyish. says:
you say one more time i tell xinru uh.
hah

One thing says:
HAHA C- CARE n L - LESS so cl is to care less for ur ppl but torture them more

This is what Yuwen, th CL and her sheep wants t deal me later caregruop.
hais, My CL is soo ......
I'm spchless. LOL

2009-04-26T08:04:00.002+07:00

One big morning, the first thing I wake up, is to BLOG.
perhaps after posting I'll be flying t 883plaza t see that Dr Ho again for my tendonitis check.
I was thinking, how am i suppose to walk to there? uhms. i think should be okay.
cause yesterday already can walk sucha long distance.
uhms, there shouldnt be a problem(:

yesterday I was damn extra after service.
i shall not say it, i dont want t make myself paiseh here.
after everything, we played L4D with th chungchengien. I played with Xinru,Glen & brandon.
I always accidently shoot them as i thought they are th zombies. LOL.
Ha. but then at least i know how to play ABIT.
I hope i wont get addicted yeah? Haha.

After L4D went to centre point Mac t do D&T stuff with Anqi.
had alot of things happen at there, we laughed like mad over there. and we even used Mac's cup to contain water and use th water for our poster colour ehs!
Just because of this, we attracted alot of attention inside MacDonal.
while we preapre to pack up and go back home, Anqi found out that th table has alot of maker inks. she got so worked up and ask me to leave while th workers there are not seeing us.
fortunaetly, we able to get out of th Mac. Anqi used run, i've no choice but to walk quickly.

And th most suay thing is, i didnt knew that somerset MRT doesnt have escalator to go down,
So when i see th staircase, anqi and me were so shock lahs!
then no choice i go down step by step and how i know i cause a human traffic behind me.
Anqi finished going down th stairs, i still have more than half way t go.
I was keep laughing, same goes t Anqi.

while we were in th MRT, happened t saw Ms Yulan.
Anqi took her photo in th MRT. and also we keep on laughing in th train also.
hais, hopeless.
i think i'll end here people!

And, a gentle reminder t my shep and leader.
Yuwen & yuqing these 2 shepherd and sheep wants t throw me t th sea as I'm a baika now.
Today caregruop at sembawang beach! yay!

2009-04-25T07:30:00.004+07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yx6xGNQ1_Zs&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J0Eq0XdEIes
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O9Lg15UrQxg&feature=related

See th difference(:
Enjoys

2009-04-23T19:26:00.002+07:00

Like I've said.
I have no parents, I told dad that I have,severe ankle sprain and achillies tendonitis.
& do you know what he said? His reply is so opposite to other parent.
& his answer is "faster die better, always bring trouble to the family, th faster you die, th faster the family will be peaceful, you caused your mother leave the house"
And after hearing this yesterday, I did not angry, rather, i felt that I should not be in this family.
At times, i am thinking, even if i'm not matter in this family, why they still want me to stay in this family?

I really really confuse. Seriously.
Surprisingly, the one who brought me to see the doctor was not my parent, neither my dog, grandma and my brother.
It's Yuwen & her mum, actually I'm really confuse, though I'm not their child and sister but why they care for me much more than my parent does?
They dont care 'bout me is okay, at least say some thing to comfort me and I would be very happy and contented. But I never know that my parents just dont care 'bout me.

Why always is always my friends or my friends' parents will care for me so much?
But why is not my "own" parents?
When I told my parents that my friend's mom brought me to see doctor, they scolded me that "Eh, we have no money to see doctor meh, why lend from your friend's mom?! you love them alot right? then go be their daughter lah"
I replied that "just now once you come home i already complained t you that my leg got sprain and you say th faster i die, the faster th family will be peaceful."
And he added on with his scolding. After scolding, I isolate myself in my room. crying & crying.

just now i had finished doing laundry, sweeping th floor and etc.
mom came back from malaysia today, she scolds me "i thought you very good in handling house chores, you little b.... , why make this house so messy.
I had tried my best in keeping th house clean, brother is the culprit that he makes th house so messy after I've cleaned it.

As for today, dad gave me th permission for not attending school, i thought he still cares for me.
How i know, while around 8am, before we went to work, he wake me up and i thought he wants t bring me to sinseh. unfortunately, my thinking is so negatively from his'.
He said "remember to wash all th clothes from th pail, and mop th floor and sweep th floor. and also remember to prepare lunch"

I told him in a very nice tone for th first time, "but i dont think that i can do all these chores within today, cause my leg had injured." He added on" who ask you to play outside after school. you asked for it." after saying these, he went out.
I sitted at my bed, prayed and cried non-stop to God.
Asked him, "God, why am i in this state?" After praying, my mind keep flashing how my dad speaks t me in th morning and yesterday.
And that's th time i cried so loudly.

Why this month alot of things happened so suddenly?
God, could you please tell me, what can i do to please my parents?
I can see that whatever i do, is just a animal who are disgracing them.
I did not complain anything while i do housework, and i try to bear th pain.
Do you know that? do my mummy and daddy knows that?
I admitted that I have th intention to use th knife and end my life.
it's seriously no joke. really.
i was thinking why grandma stopped me at th time.
just because I'm lucky? or is this God's plan?

Can any people tell me, what can i do so that my parents can look up on me?
Though my brother also poor in studies and somemore he's in NA stream, but how come my parents still dote on him like nobody business.
& lastly i wanna say this "Do anybody wants to have me as their daughter?"
cause I'm really tired of here in this family.
I really had enough of this accusings, insultings.
God, I pray, can you stop this at once?
My pain is everywhere now, mentally,spiritually & physically.
i think i will collaspe one day and my parents wont know.

2009-04-22T14:11:00.005+07:00

Hey everybody, I have 2 "Good" news to tell here.

firstly, I dont know when I sprained my ankle!!!! During school until now i keep on bearing th pain. & i dont even know can I wear slippers to school tomorrow. shiat! pain pain pain!
Surely this week's service cannot walk or jump. haiis!!!! God, please heal me. Amen

Secondly, Today having an health check in the school. and th nurse said I got to wear spetacles.
suay ah! She says my condition is just only quite bad, not that bad.
So to me, i think there's nothing lah. haha.

But th main thing is!
I HAD SPRAINED MY ANKLE!
Is really damn pain now, seriously.
I am thinking how am i going to school.
God ah, why me?!

Went to see doctor just now, doctor says my foot behind th vain got hurt.
& he also advised me not to walk/stand too long, if stand/walk too long, it might take a very long time to heal.
th doctor says my ankle is slighty got sprained, but mostly is at my tendonitis.
he added on that th "tendonitis" will take very long time to get heal.
Even th doctor will no idea when will i get heal.
Saturday /sunday i got to go back to th clinic to let him check again, hope that everything will be fine(:

and th doctor is so crazy that that he gave me 1 month excuse for no PE lessons.
I told kam these and she's jealous. Ha.
I cant imagine th doctor is sooo generous. LOL
& also thank God for Yuwen's mom and yuwen for bringing me to see th doctor, without your, i think i got to continue to cry and cry non-stop(:

2009-04-21T19:33:00.003+07:00

I'm not gonna blog 'bout what's happening in th school, I think there's no need for me to post and let everyone know.
Whoever knows it, then let it be(:
dont care so much if this doesnt concerns you(:

Gonna blog 'bout after school!!!
Kamilia, Anqi & me went to Centre point and PS for EBS photo taking.
Kamilia just accompanied us cause she had finished her photo taking.
While we were at starbucks @ centre point, I helped Anqi to take photo with her face inside, Actually I had already shooted her photo, so i lied to her that still heavent take yet. As I was adjusting th directions. After that, I told her I lied to her cause i want her to make her paiseh infront of th customers. Ha!

After that, went PS KFC t have lunch, an indian child went over and almost get near kamilia. LOL. okay, that's not th point.
Went to daiso! Anqi took alot of pictures of me. and I dont think I will post up cause it's tooooo ugly!
So after taking photo here & there, took rebound train. Anqi & Kamilia told me while i was sleeping in th train, i almost dozed off to th old uncle's shoulder.
So I was thinking that what if I really got into him then I might as well kill myself!

So i think that's all bah(:
byes peep.

you just dont have the rights to scold the person you hate.
if you dont like that person's attitude or whatsoever, leave her alone.
dont interfere her life, and also dont need to spend much time on her just to quarrel or fight w her.
She doesnt have that time to entertain you!

2009-04-20T18:35:00.002+07:00

I'll make this post short & sweet. cause I want to sleep early(:

School- okays, alot of laughters! Ha, laugh here laugh there(:

Maths- Ms Tan wanted us to stay back to finish up th maths revision, So again, mugging & mugging non-stop. First time stayed in school until 2.45pm just for MATHS. I cant belive it!
Ha, thank God for me(:

After school- Went to chongpang, SSC and causeway point starbucks to take pictures for EBS coursework. tomorrow will also chionging starbucks also. It's at centrepoint, and plazasing. Ha.
Sian-ness! but today had some jokes at SSC(: I shall not tell here(:

After all things- okays! byes! "pong" Sleep! byes people!

2009-04-19T09:17:00.002+07:00

ohwell, I had left my blog dead for entire 3 freking days, so I shall blog something.
I seriously had no idea what to post.
Let's wait till monday okays(:
Ha, byes people(:

2009-04-15T20:38:00.003+07:00

Ha! so amazingly that whore wanna break relationship as mother & daughter today.
Well, i didnt mentioned this, it's her!.
I also dont need her in this family too. I was sooo happy that she called me Bastard.
haha! I bastard means she's also a bastard too lohs!
She finally admit luhs.

My main story is ;
THE WHORE WANTS TO BREAK MOTHER & DAUGHTER RELATIONSHIP WITH ME.
No joke, this is real.

I hate you since long long time ago.

2009-04-14T14:19:00.002+07:00

I simply hate my mom!
I dont have a mom like her!

All I only now realised is that th house that I'm in now is just for me to sleep, slack!
& that's it!
I hate it! I dont deserve to call you "mom" & you dont deserve to call me "your daughter!"
People's parents were so loving to their child, then what about me?!
You parents always quarrel qurrel & quarrel non-stop.
When are your going to end this?! DIVORCE BETTER LAH!
I dont need you people to teach me what is "Love"
what's th point of teaching me as you didnt show it out?!

You dare to say I'm the most fortunate people to be in this family.
& I finally get your idea what's that mean, your meaning is "UNFORTUNATE"
Ha! gotcha!
Seriously very "suay" to be your child lehs!
you dont give a damn!
Dont treat me as your daughter lah! since when I was young you said I was collected by your from rubbish bin.
I rather die in th rubbish bin better than suffer with your for freaking 15years.
wasted my 15years of my life.

YOU(mom)!
you treat me as what?! Spare tyre uh?!
when you need me, you come to me and make me feel good.
when you dont need me, you treat me worse then a prisoner!
Then I ask you this, what's th difference of a prisoner and me?!
They have place to stay, I also have place to stay mah.
So tell me, WHAT TH HELL IS TH DIFFERENCE IS?!
moron mother!

Dont ever think that what you can get during mother's day lah!
I wont give you anything to appreciate my love for you lah!
DREAM ON! FAT HOPE!
Ha, & one good news, that year(2008) I've had made a card for that whore, and sucessfully, I had torn away that card! Ha!
what for keeping that card? you like my art uh? thank uh.
what for keeping th card when you know you're not fit to my mother.
Dream on that I'll made another one for you uh! never uh!

I can choose not to call you mom in future, I rather call you a whore!
Ha, this name suits you th most! WHOREEEE~!
HAHA! I'm freaking happy today uh!
WHORE IS IN TH HOUSE!!! BE AWARE!!!
opps, i forgotten that mom dont know what is a whore, whore is basically means "PROSITTUE" who also known as "CHICKEN"
Even she send herself to geylang, nobody will intrested in her man! look at her figure and age, omg! even a dirty old man can puke infront of you because of you appreance to them!
& forgot t tell you, you are more like a Fat chicken. It makes me remind of th chicken that you cook for th chicken rice!
HAHA! but, even th chicken is much more prettier than you!

I can chooose not to be a whore too, cause like she said "I was collected from th rubbish bin" so, it is very obvious that she's not my mom! No wonder she acts like an chicken. LOL
haha, Steven Lim, th famous stripper also not intrested in you mans! HAHA!
A FAT, IRRITATING, SICKENING, IDIOT whore is here in town!
Book a ticket to see her! Free admision!

Haha, by th way, i want to wish this chicken a happy mother day in early advance even though I'm not her real daughter(:

I dont need a family!

2009-04-13T17:21:00.003+07:00

Hey please for goodness sake, dad & mom.
If your still want to continue to quarrel and make this family upside down, i would prefer your t divorce as i dont want everytime came home just to see your quarrel and arguing over such small matters.
I cant live without any of your, I would rather move out and rent a room and stay myself better than listening t your sorrows and pains.
Seriously had enough of it.
If your like t quarrel so much, why married at th first place?!

If your think that your do not have th ability to take care one small family, then i can tell you this, dont care at all, dont give a damn at all.
Neither do I want to help to pack up your "stall" !
I hate this family~! i hate it t th core!
How I wish I were not born out, & that will everything be fine!

Since your dont like me, I dont like your, then what's th point of living together.
& this is what you called a "Happy family" pui!
Dont use that words to disguise me!
Like I said, Divorce is th best choice ever.
Your also dont need to snatch th authourity to take care of brother & me.
We would rather stay in an orphange home rather than living in a HDB flat called "Home"

At least orphange home shows love! your parents show nothing?!
Why bother to take care brother & me?!
dont care 'bout brother & me, if your think divorce is th best way to aviod quarrel, then i should STRONGLY encourage your to divorce ASAP.
Stop dragging me & brother along.

At th same time, we also dont need a complete family!
cause you parents has shown t us what is your expression of "Love" t us.

2009-04-11T10:07:00.002+07:00

What career will suit your personality?

You would be very happy in a career that utilised your level-headedness, and allowed you to work mainly on your own. You want a career that allows you to be creative, without having to be involved with lots of people. Some careers that would be perfect for you are:

Artist
Historian
Banker
Novelist
University Professor
Photographer
Vet
Paralegal
Graphic Designer
Online Content Developer
Webmaster
Producer
Managing Director
Nutritionist
Advertising
Nursing
You like working and being alone. You like to avoid attention at all costs. You tend to keep to yourself, and not interact much with the people around you. You enjoy spending time with a few a close friends. You like to listen to others, but don't like sharing much about yourself. You are very quiet and private.
You are very practical, and
only act after thinking things through. You don't like being forced to answer quickly. You have to evaluate the situation completely. You make decisions based on what you can verify with your senses.

You like to be deeply involved in one or two special projects. You like to be behind the scenes. You are very logical and fair. You feel you should be honest with others and protect their feelings.

You trust your gut instincts. You are easily inspired and trust that inspiration. You are very innovative. You analyse things by looking at the big picture. You are concerned about how what you do affects others. You worry about your actions and the future. You tend to use a lot of metaphors and are very descriptive and colourful in your choice of language.

You are very creative, and get bored easily if you don't get to express yourself. You like to learn new things. You don't like the same old routine. You like to leave your options open.

2009-04-10T23:52:00.003+07:00

uhms okay, now is 10April'09 , 12.52am right now.
Everybody has gone t bed, I'm th only person wake up.
I slept at around 7pm, woke up at 12am. Cool right?
Cause my dog keep barking, th noise is so irritating. Ha. This is th disadvantge of owning a dog at home. They can simply do funny things t you while you're sleeping.
Still remember she was brought home just 1 week plus, while i was sleeping sooo sweetly, i didnt realised that my dog actually bite my hair!
0nce I got up, my brother told me, and i scolded him t death.
Thank goodness my hair still in th same style, if not i gonna kill my dog. LOL.
Actually I'm kind t pets one(:

& now, I'm freaking bored, i dont know what can I do to occupy my time.
I dont feel like sleeping now, even though i love t sleep.

&yes! Unit outing tomorrow! 0ur last fellowship as North B & D.
but i will remember th good times we had together!
not forgetting those silly and stupid stuff we done during caregruop, or wherever we go.
Thanks for so much laughters(:
& also thanks for tolerating my screamings even though i know it's so loud all th times(:
greatly appreciated!
I didnt go for today's northland farewell ! ): So sad!
My parents dont allow me t go out. omg!
Huanwen & Sarah chu will be leaving cchy gruop! ): aww!!
hope that they will miss me(: I think they will(: HA!

Pray that I can make it for tomorrow's outing.
Meet at woodlands MRT 10am! TOMORROW!

I think that's all i want t share bah(:
Trying t find other thing t do(:
byes people!

The 2 whores, uncompletly family!

2009-04-08T20:42:00.003+07:00

why everything I do in th family is always wrong?!
everything brother do is always right?!
To them, I just a rotten apple, a very rotten apple!
Nothing i can do t please them!
Still remember when I was in primary 2, mum asked her "most ahlian mother" t beat me up by using cane. Cause she thought that I changed my english exam marks.
I was brought t th ahlian's house together with mum.
I got canned, i cant explain for myself, and they just keep beating me.
& I was so afraid, how i wish i could die in her hands!
Well, she is MICHELLE! MRS SO! Th whore mummy in th world!
So is my mum too! she's a whore too! she dont give a damn t me!
Neither will she cares for me! NOT!
I just simply hate this 2 whores t th core!

Dad, th man who use violent t deal with his DAUGHTER ONLY!
I also hate him! still remember how he banged my head t th wall! I'LL NOT NEVER EVER FORGET THIS!
I told him, I dont want t stay in this family anymore! I hate everyone of them here!
I had enough of him! Seriously had enough!
& I also dont give a damn whether will he knows what am I writting. what i write here is all th true facts! It's his problem if he deny it!
He treated me as his personal punching bag! Whenever he needs t vent anger on, he will find me. Whenever he's in th good mood, he treats you like human!
I just simply sick and tired of his attitude!
I rather stay on my own self better than living in hell!

Then my brother! In NA stream! I'm from NT Stream! th fact is he is smarter!
everybody treats him like gods of angels, i got treated like a servant!
HELL! He dont deserve it!
if he not deserve it, perhaps, its me.
Brother watched "I not stupid 2"
A word "FAMILY" means ;
FA- Father
MI- Mummy
ILY- I LOVE YOU.

I just simply hate this word!
they didnt do their job as parents! I hate them, I hate them!
Espacially th 2 whores! Th shamless woman that I ever seen before!
This is th family of unrighteousness!!
I HATE DADDY, I HATE MUMMY, I HATE BROTHER! I HATE EVERYONE IN TH FAMILY!!!!! I HATE TH WORD CALLED "FAMILY!"
I have no family! i hate this family! I dont want t born in this family!

Everybody here treats me like a unwelcome jinx!
jinx! jinx! jinx!
What I want in this home is warmth! All th way i dont feel it at all!
I simply dont feel it! Mu heart's numb.
Is that how your express th love for me?
If yes, why my love from you people is so much different from my brother!
is that what you call a "LOVE" for me?!
HELL UP YO!
I really feel like crying, do you know that? "Daddy, Mummy?"
How I wish I can have a normal life with your even though I'm facing money problems?!
How I wish I can accounted what I've done in th school?!
How I wish your are th one who gives me that perserverance t continue my studies. & your say i cant make it, or even blame me.

All I want is a family that cares.
Do you know it?! Do you know it?! DO YOU KNOW IT?!
most of th subject teachers said that I had made so much improvement compared t th last year's. your gave th teacher a untrusted face.
thought that teacher says is all for entertaining you parents!

you are th people that gives me hope less
you are th people that praise me a word called use less
you are th people that born me out, your are so peace less.

Since if its that's case, I might as well leave, what for staying in th family that nobody cares?!

I still hate th whores of 2~!

2009-04-06T18:14:00.003+07:00

0bviously, I'm not in th good mood recently, due t some "serious" problems.
& made my day so sucky! just dont affect my studies and that will do.
Today is our last day for EBS Task A Acess work. & perhaps wednesday, Mr Vijay will let us preapre Task B prepartory work? Ha. Hope so.
After EBS will be english, Mr Tan wants us t form a groups, each group 5 person.
In a gruop, there will be 5 roles;

Kamilia- The scriber.
Anqi- Task Master
Huimin- Leader
Zhaorong- Time keeper
Me: Editor(check english)

Actually i was thinking they so trust my english uh? Ha. they choosed me t be editor. 0hwell, i shall be proud of it yea?
our theme for our letter writting is kids program "TELETUBBIES"
somehow like evauate what is good and what is bad for the kids.
We still stuck in th few sentence, cause we keep playing th marker and draw our hands.
& my marker smerged on th hands! also huimin, kam & huimin.
0hmygod, next time dont want t let them th marker.
HA!
after that, MATHS.
I had gotten back my results, and guess what?
I FAILED! ): I got 5/15
Sad right?! But Ms Tan said I had made improvement(: 0hwell, I hope i still can buck up more.
Kam said she wants t study maths too, huimin & I pull her t do maths tgt.
Heheee, that's why friends are for.
1hour later, bell rang, fang xue luhs!!

Huimin, Kam went t my house viod deck t have lunch.
kam went home t bath first, so huimin & I headed t my house t check if there's money I can take.
my parents still dont trust me, they cancelled th phone line in th living room, so no money. I called dad up using huimin's phone, quarreled with dad, he stills think that I'm th culprit.
So i shouted back t him, i just dont care, since he dont give me money, then I hang his phone up.
not long later, mum came back from market, gave her an irritating face, she asked me t tidy up my room. I refused t listen t her, So I pretend t talk t Huimin saying "huimin, let's go down t bring my dog t walk" then keep gossip 'bout her.
i just dont care whether she heards it or not, cause I'm stating th true fact.

Finally kam has reached, so headed down t 883 north plaza t buy our lunch there and bring our food back t viod deck and eat.
Alot of people looking at us eating! LOL.
After eating, decided t take 858 t changi airport and take back to woodlands.
Huimin dropped at khatib MRT, Kam dropped at Yishun MRT t take her stupid 969.
& I didnt dropped at woodlands MRT. I dropped at Evergreen primary there.
Ha, means I just came back from 1 hour trip(:

So that's all I have t share.
& I just simply hate them t th core!

2009-04-05T19:52:00.002+07:00

God, you really got t help me this time.
My family dont trust me now. I have no stand in th family now.
I had spent 2nights crying. I'm really very upset.
Yesterday night, mum accused me.
Today morning, Dad accused me.

I'm really sick & tired.
what have I done wrong?

Your want me t go home after school, I did it.
without any complains.
I always try my best t be a obedient daughter at home, but your said I cant make it.
your always dote on brother more than me.
this fact I also forced myself t accept.

Parents meeting your keep saying negative things t teacher, I also let your say, cause teacher wont think I'm this kind pf person.
paperwork for me t do at th very last minute, I also choose t settle it even though it's around mid night time.

Dad always vent anger on me whenever he feels low.
I also let him vented.

what do your want me t do now?
I never ..... I seriously never.

Tell me what should I do t gain your respect & trust again?!
do you know I'm blogging this and I cried at th same time?!

God, tears just dropped from my eyes.
sometimes I was thinking I'm not worth in this family.
& I hang on t it for 15years of my life.
there's still a long way for me t walk, i dont know how should I continue.
God, let me cry like never before.
Amen.

2009-04-04T21:09:00.005+07:00

Today announced restructuring in North district.
well, chungcheng doesnt have much changes.
0nly huanwen & sarah chu will be moving t northland sec t poineer.
jiayous! (:

During th Netrual service, we've seen 2 video.
First video we had seen is how much we had bond together as a unit as we were still so uncomfortable with each other.
Next up is th "North-B's production of Desperate people's MV"
Most of th girls seen this video, they were almost cried out. Ha, including me.
But can say I was moved t tears.

before I take another step of my spiritual life again, I wish I can remember this;
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DPW7KzUaXLA
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0dLmfiXeTTQ&eurl=http%3A%2F%2Fdavidhoe%2Ewordpress%2Ecom%2F&feature=player_embedded

I think th video will help me do th saying.
GoodNitez!

I'm gonna set this as my msn diaplay picture t remind myself this.

2009-04-03T16:30:00.004+07:00

2 bad things happened today.

I felt so helpless, moody.

God, gotta help me.

I got stucked here. Get me out of darkness.

Kam, cheer up.

Sad no more(:

A Hilliarious Incident At Khatib MacDonal.

2009-04-02T16:43:00.003+07:00

1)Heading t kahtib macDonal together with Huimin, Anqi, Zhaorong & myself.
2)Talk 'about death !
3)Zhaorong says her mum did called her late loved ones before(Which is dead people of her relatives)
4)Huimin,Anqi & me, SHOCKED! SCARED! FRIGHTEN!
5)We were keep laughing at her, I even requsted her t let me talk t my late-grand father.
6)we laughed again! HAHA!
7)She insisted it is true that we can communicate through telephone with our love-d ones.
8)we continue t let her stay in her lala land.
9) I requested her again t call her late-relatives t find my late grandpa and ask my grnadpa t "Bao mong" t me.
10)she says cannot.
11) We laughed like hell in MacDonal.

While I was at th bus, I keep thinking how t communicate with our love-d ones?
Is her mum having a wild humilation? Or is it true?
Well, her family is really supertistious. trust me.
There's no scientific prove that we can call our love-d ones! Means her mum is really an expert!
0verall , I just cant telling me t stop laughing as I post this.
0hmy! wake up dear girl! gotta face reality in world! Not in nether world! (:

2009-04-01T15:00:00.002+07:00

I nearly forgot my blog's url.
Haha, what happen t me?! LOL it's 0kay(:

Today is april fool day, & I was fooled by Huimin & sarah.
Ha, I fooled back Sarah(:
I think I can go t service/cg already? Cause my dad seems dont care.
uhms, I shall try go out during saturday, see whether will he scolds.
NETURAL CHAPTER or CHAPTER NETURAL ?
Ha, I forgotten, but I really pray that I can go out uh.

& I was late for school AGAIN!
Actually I'm not late, I have reason.
Reason is I go down t my house t wait for bus at 6.30am, th bus came at freakin' 7am! what th?! & because of that, I was late.
Get nagged for nothing and I dont wish t explain.
Already got a nagging, what for explain. LOL

Then go back t class, all th way sian-ness.
After recess, music lesson. So got keyboard exam AGAIN!
second time, I failed. uhms, it okays(:
After music then EBS.
Huimin fooled Mr vijay and he didnt have any scence of humour. Ha.

I shall end here bah(:
I'm seriously dead tired.

2009-03-30T14:28:00.002+07:00

Song: Da Zhang Fu (Jolin)
realeased: 2009.

我真的搞不太懂你怎么会选择寂寞
要的通通都有就少了那一个男朋友
你还要多久你到底挑什么

听比说的多不怕我啰嗦
知道我难过陪着我沉默
手机桌布只有我很多甜蜜小动作
自己吃饭没胃口刷卡之前先问我
喜欢我朋友也会爱我的狗
懂环保爱地球保护我像英雄
总是大方介绍我什么节日都记得
陪我减肥吃苹果帮我买口红

I Don't Wanna Boyfriend
I Need A Real Man 诚实的嘴可靠的肩温柔的眼
I Don't Wanna Boyfriend
I Need A Real Man Real Man Real Man Real Man Real Man
何时出现何时出现何时出现何时出现

会玩会工作会疯会生活
会下厨会运动会爱会作梦
又像男孩又成熟对我大方自己扣
教我绝招打电动什么都有我

I Don't Wanna Boyfriend I Need A Real Man
诚实的嘴可靠的肩温柔的眼
I Don't Wanna Boyfriend I Need A Real Man
Real Man Real Man Real Man Real ManI Be Your Real Man
可会出现可会出现可会出现可会出现

我现在有一点通该怎么解决你寂寞
你说了两三分钟我愿意换两三年去做
既然你很久要不要等等我
大丈夫耍酷耍温柔肩膀什么都扛得动
我嘴唇轻轻动一动就知道我在想什么
Just Show Me One Real Man
十项全男 Real Man

I Don't Wanna Boyfriend I Need A Real Man
诚实的嘴可靠的肩温柔的眼
I Don't Wanna Boyfriend I need a Real Man Real Man Real Man Real Man
IDon't Wanna Boyfriend I Need A Real Man
诚实的嘴可靠的肩温柔的眼
I Don't Wanna Boyfriend I Need A Real Man
Real Man Real Man Real Man Real Man
Yeah A-ha I Need A Real ManI'm Same Like This Girl

2009-03-29T16:55:00.003+07:00

I'm speechless, th only thing I wanna say is ;
God, please. Let me out of darkness and see th light shinning on me.
I'm like a kite, just stuck there & helpless.

Next week is unit mini service, and our leader expect everybody t turn up.
How I wish I could, but... I have some doubts that I can.
perhaps i should trust God(:
Yuwen is going t speak t my dad & I pray that everything will be fine(:

& now, it's time for me t suffer in my maths questions again.
sherry, you are just hopeless.
A truly failure.

2009-03-28T10:31:00.002+07:00

God, I know you are testing me.
I'll stand strong, I will continue t seek you.
Even if I got t wait another 6 more months after my N'level t come for service, God, I also willing t wait.

I can also tell you frankly that I did lost my trust in you, but still, I will trust. Cause I know you'll provide(:
I pray that I will not need t wait after my N'level end and t serve you in church. Please soften my father's heart t let me serve you.
In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

I really had nothing t say, God, you are th planner of my life, you decided what t do.

2009-03-27T19:21:00.003+07:00

Today's parents meeting, one word t describe, it SUCKS big time!
Though Mr Tan said alot of good words of me, but it seems my dad doesnt trust at all.
I get used already, Dont trust me, then I've nothing t say, think negatively all he wants. I dont care th way he looks at me. At least I know I'm better than last year.

I dont wish t go ITE after I graduated.
I hope I can either go Shatec/Nafa/Laselle.

& I have no mood t continue t post, I'll make this post short & sweet(:
Dad wants me t concentrate on my N'level, I cant go to service, shepherding & cg/ any other things.
I'll go home striaght away after school.

God, I dont want dad t choose th course for me, I want t choose my own path.
Amen(:
* Let me have my own decision. & respect it.

2009-03-26T20:12:00.003+07:00

I'm here t restrict my blog!

Today school was so extremly, totally normal.
surprisingly, I was late for school today again. Assemble at parade square t have a "Scolding speech" from Mr See, lucky I was late enough, so that I wont able t let him scold me for being late as I yesterday late too.

My D&T artifact spolit again! This is th thrid time I made my artifact spolit ):
So, I got t re-do all over again, but before getting th material I want for my re-do artifact, I still remember Mr See said before that I cannot re-do my artifact again, cause I've waste alot of plastics and stuff. So no choice, Anqi & I go t Mr Suhaimi for new material and re-do my artifact.
Lucky Mr See didnt notice it.
I'm so so so sorry that I helped chung cheng t waste money. HAHA!!
& I really want t pray that my artifact will not damange again! If not I can kill myself! ):

After recess is MATHS! which is MY POTENTIAL BEST FRIEND! LOL!
Thank God that I can excatly know what formular should I used for each questions(:
I've owed Ms Tan 2 more pratice in th textbook, but until now, I managed t finish up Pratice 3A, 3B I'll do it tomorrow.
Also my first time not sleeping in class & really concentrating maths! I should have some encouragement right?! ha!

When for afternoon assenbly, Got bullied by th same old people again.
I think these people your should know them by now(:
Infront me do bites and pinch, behind me tickle. LOATHSOME! LOL.
Mr Kenneth Ng announced Anqi's name through Microphone t th whole school. Ha! cause she bully me. HAHA! Assembly's all 'bout youth olympic games. so boring, every assembly period show those stupid stuff. have something fresh all rights?! No creativity for those prefects.

After school stayed back t continue my D&T coursework, As I was walking around t do my artifact, Mr see saw a new work piece in my hands, and he asked "Sherry, wah, so clever uh? still dare t take new material t re-do your artifact uh" I replied "Ehs, sorry, but It's too late t informed you" then he keep on nag nag nag. Ha. So i just heck cared and continue t do my artifact slowly and steady. HA!
Within 1 hour, My work piece are done, only left t polish them t make it shiny, and lastly put electronics and that's it.
I hope I wont stay back during june hols as I dont want t crush church camp ):
scarly during camp need t wear uniform walking around, really look like a retard.
I make sure this not going t be happen! LOL!

3.15pm accompanied Anqi t dental t check up on her braces. Ha, th doctor's assistance dont know how t move th lights and th doctor's assistance keep moving th lights t Anqi's eyes, and she said her eys are really pain. LOL.
Then th doctor said t Anqi "Sorry uh, she should know this basic skills" HAHA!
So funny! Th assistance also keep looking at me and i also dont know for what.
After that anqi wanted t go t vivo t buy something, so i went home first t chiong my maths.
while I was waiting for bus, she kept flooding my messages.
Ha, too bad, I cant reply her cause my card has no value left.

okay, I shall do my cofirmation already people! good nights!
Sians! tomorrow parents metting session! I hate it!
God, I pray that teacher will not say negative stuff of me, and I also want t pray that my parents will not be so naggy infront of teacher and me after th meeting session, in Jesus name, Amen ;D

2009-03-24T13:38:00.002+07:00

I want t be good friend with Maths.
I want t be good friend with D&T.
I want t be good friend with English.
I want t be good friend with EBS.
I want t be good friend with Mother Tounge.
I want t be good friend with CPA.
I want t be good in my studies.
I promise myself must work harder.
I want t make God pleased.
I want t be salt & light.

SHERRRRY! buck up! there's no time for me t slack(:
jiayous jiayous jiayous!!!

2009-03-22T11:28:00.005+07:00

I was sitting down and thinking a word called "Passion"
So what is th meaning of passion?
Do I live my passion out?
Is passion important t me?

Well, Passion is simply a things that you really like/love t do, regardless of how many pain you are suffering, how tired you are & etc.
So, what is my passion? For God? or th things/friends around me?
Yes, I admit that my passion is for God, ministry & friends around me, but I dont seem I live it out, I seriously dont.

So, how am I gonna make my passion t stay on with me?
"Passion" makes me think of this word called "Pain"
If you have no pain, then no gain.
That's how realistic th world is.
Then what about spiritual passion?
I think I should live it out now, no delaying(:

you may do this spiritual gifting test in this site:
http://www.kodachrome.org/spiritgift/

& My top 3 is Serving, Music, Encouragement & Speaking in touges(:

2009-03-14T08:06:00.004+07:00

So sorry t my blog for not being faithful enough for you ):
But I have reason(:

This week having elective module, & guess what? I'm in th F&B. Ha!
But my culinary skills can abit make it lah. Not that worse(:
in this past 3 days, we learnt how t cooked/baked pasta, pineapple cake, chocolate chips cookies, chicken pie, almond jelly, mutabak, scottish & shortbread.
our trainers are Andy Tan & Helen Tan. I miss Helen! she so sweet and has a fair skin too(: haha!
Andy owned a itatly restaurant at vivo just beside starbucks. I think I'm going there
to try their food(: Andy even said that he'll give us discount(: I hope th discount will be at least 50%. Ha.

While I was cooking pasta, Ms Isma came and tell me that "hey, you forgot t out this and put that in" ha, then she says my actions very cute t her and also make her laugh like crazy, not forgetting that time N'level coursework she laughed at my proposal. Ha.

Yesterday was th last day of th elective module. Huimin & I sicked on th second day & yesterday.
We both have fever.
after cooking th pasta, we have prize giving ceremony, I was feeling very cold and I was shivering all th way and my face was so hot. And this is th time where i know that I have fever.
after th ceremony, went back t F&B room t take photo with th trainers, I smelled th pasta's smell and almost vomit out. I just cant stand that smell.

Quickly take photos, then went t backgate, Huimin & Anqi accompanied me t wait for th cab as I have no strengh t take th bus. while I was in th cab, I really feel like vomitting, so when I alighted, I just give th uncle $11 and ask him t keep th change, cause i want t go back and vomit out.

Then rest a while, during 8pm, i took my tempreture, I had 38.8 degree.
my head were spinning round and round. & my whole body was so hot.
I just couldnt get up and walk or sit up. and I got sore throat some more.
sucks t th hell!
My head is still spinning around again! , I cant attend church service today.
0hya! btw, jiayous xinru for her dance performance(: and also thanks xinru and friends who prayed for my sickness(:

My parents and di will be going t malaysia today afternoon, left w my xiaogui and grandma. nobody's take care of me. I think I'll collaspe at home and i bet nobody's knows.
okay, i think i shall stop here, i shall go and rest as my head still spinning and really hurts alot.

2009-03-04T14:43:00.003+07:00

Today, I've one good news to share and 2 bad news t share.
Let's start with the good news first, th first good news was that I PASSED MY CHINESE COMMON TEST! I almost jump off my seats and started t compare my marks t my classmates!
Obviously, I didnt(:
& you know what Ace told me when I was writing chinese word?, she said that my chinese handwriting look like a cartoon is writing and is so ugly.
i did beat her up till she say sorry and beg for mercy. LOL. I dont know what happen t me recently, I was sort of crazy gal keep laughing here & there.

okayokay, next will be bad news, firstly will be "I had spolit my handphone!"
my day so sucks without him! ): LOL
I hope dad will allow me t send for repairing so better still, let me change handphone. As like Kamilia said that it's not worth it t repair, might as well get a new phone or a second phone. yeah, i really hope dad will have th same thinking as what kamilia is thinking. (:
I think i'll be using back th old model nokia phone, th model I'm not too sure neither. aiyah, just heck cares.

second bad news will be... I got t re-do my D&T!
If friends knows me, this will be th THIRD time I re-do my artifact. but my previous 2 artifact still can get some high marks. haha!
th more I re-do, th more th school gotta buy more material for me. haha!
Maybe I need t stay back during June Holidays t finish up my artifact, cause june is th deadline! God, I pray that It'll not crush into church camp.

Last 3 period is EBS N'lvel coursework, well, Ms Ismail keep looking at my proposal and keep laughing t herself, I asked her why and she said that she cant tell me, so when Mr Vijay comes t me, Mr vijay said "xiao meimei, what are you doing"? argh, I got fed up with that stupid 2 proposal lah! Ha.
I've never encounter such big problem before. EBS makes me remind of doing th paperwork for my dad, pick up th calls. haha!
Retail type is not my cup of bubble tea, hahaha!

Kamilia is sick today, uhms, you better come t school tomorrow, if not, then good luck. haha!
she everytime drinks wintermelon tea, and i dont get it why she wants t have it every single day?! LOL.
okay lah, shall not gossip behind her much, if not tomorrow if she's coming t school I die.

P.S - I got bullied by Ace,Anqi,Huimin!
with a pervert actions, and Huimin got my retarted photo and she says she gonna post it into her blog. -.-
Is she making my market value high?! LOL.
I dont really know what her mind is thinking. Ha.
I think that's all, seeya!

Thank you God.

2009-03-03T14:35:00.002+07:00

I love my friends, Shepherd, Sheepmates, Sheep, but, most importantly, I LOVE GOD! He answered my prayer!Thank God!
Actually yesterday I received a call from Anqi saying that my sheep got in trouble,
& I was so afraid that what will they do t my sheep and I'm also afraid that I'll get into trouble. But I tell myself, i must help her no matter what.
So, I prayed t God and hope that He'll give me solution to solve this problem,
at night, while I was chatting in msn with my friends, Yuqing told me that she'll help me t solve this problem,so today having lunch with th "A" class Y-hope students of 1A & 4A(: Yuqing told me that she had solved that problems for me and also my sheep! Thank God! He's indeed real!

through this "testing" from God, I had memorize a verse in John14:1 it says
"Do not let your heart be troubled, trust in God, trust is also in me"
Yesterday while spending time with God, th first sentence I read is this verse! I was totally amazed by God that whenever I need him, He'll never fail t give me th assurance! Praise God!

Th feelings I just cant explain! but I just cant stop t praising God!
I'm seriously happy! God comforted me, and God helped me!
Thank you Daddy, you are great! bravo!

Oh ya, last sunday I've heard a song in youtube called "Shout t th Lord"
Th MV moved me t tears. Moses departed th sea is really exciting! omgomg~!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HzNsEBPB-Z8&feature=related

Enjoy people! You'll regret it if you dont see it(:

2009-03-01T09:04:00.006+07:00

Yesterday's service was great!
Th teaching also inspire me alot! & 14 march have another ESS, & I'm going t make sure my sheep and my contacts will come and feel th love of God together.
After service, then went for lunch at Le Meridian. Ace & Yuqing saw my dad at isle cafe when they are on th way t centre point t buy long john. Dad gave Ace 5bucks t me while Yuqing & Ace was at isle cafe I think, and obviously, his acts obviously wants me t forgive him, and finally, I decided t forgive cause Jesus forgive me like how I do.
Shepherd meeting for NB & D after lunch, played some games t warm up(:
th teaching is really inspiring! seriously! and at th same time also powerful!
It's all about EXTRAVAGANT-s( i dont know whether got "s") LOL.
After that when shepherd meeting is over, then all th North gather together and sharlene told us that our 15 newbies are not here! It's really discouraging.
So sharlene wants us t send sms t th newbies as a caregruop, oh well, I've sent my meh meh 2pages long of messages. haha!
After that went home with Yuqing,Ting2 & huanwen.
Yuqing and Ting2 dropped off at yishun and HuanWen & myself dropped off at woodlands, after that accompanied huanwen t buy dinner! ohyeah! also praise God that Huanwen's brother never come home! if her brother gets home, she'll be in dead meat. haha! she has "brother objection" in going out so early and get home so late(:
yeppy, so we keep talking about my dad's problem( i dont think there's a reason for me t share it out) and she even sent sms t me t cheer up and all sort, and, not forgetting my cg members t tell me t jiayous in leading my very first sheep(:
Thanks people! your are loved!

Once I get home, my dad already gets home, and first time heard him saying SORRY! uhms, he already said sorry so why should I not forgive him? haha!
He even ordered pizza for us, a canadian pizza(:
I thought it's hawaii pizza, but it turns out t be a seafood pizza! LOL
so I've learnt that if you want t forgive a person, make sure you forgive with your heart has no more hates on that person.
at th same time, I dont need more affirmation from my shepherd or leader t tell everybody how well I am, No,& I dont need more affirmation just t gain my popularity. I dont need, all I know is that I'm doing this is not for my leader/shepherd t see, but it's all for God, th only God(:
p.s **I'm not saying/scolding affirmation is so sucks t me(:

Byes people!
*yawns*

2009-02-27T17:53:00.003+07:00

NT vs NA student.
guess who will win?
Well, of course its th NA lah!
you know what? My dad showed off infront of me telling me that he wants t get a new phone for my brother.somemore it's a new model people!
My brother just only sec 1, I'm sec 4. I get nothing!
All I get is second hand product! My brother gets will be first hand!
Just because I'm stupid! I'm useless! I'm in th NT class! that's why i dont gain anybody's respect!
sometimes I asking myself these;
-if you know that mom's womb is me, why dont you abort me?!
- since you DECLARE that my brother is SMARTER than me then why should I still continue t do your stupid paperwork?!

My friend's parents also did not treat them like how my parents treated me, why am I th misfortunate one!?
Sometimes, my friends/friend's parents always treated me like their own daughter. Even my friend's parents can treat me like a daughter,why cant my parents be like one too?!

Well I was having common test, I finished revised around 10pm+ , when i turned in and sleep, my brother and dad watched movie in youtube and when I ask them t lower down th volume and they scolded me "SHUT UP"
ytd I was using th computer, my brother was asleep, cause he has class' test, my dad came t me and scolded me t lower down th volume with a harsh tone, I talked back t him "that time I was having my test your also never lower down th volume so why should I listen t you" Amazingly, he has nothing t say.

Good grief!
That's a big big disadvantages for being a NT student and a daughter in the family.
Daughter will always get used my their loved ones.
FINE~ DAD, since you said t me that DIDI is SMARTER than me, FROM NOW ONWARDS, ALL TH PAPERWORK YOU ASK HIM T DO IT FOR YOU! I DONT CARE WHETHER HE HAS TEST OR WHATEVER TEST, ASK HIM T DO, I'M NOT GOING T CARE ANYMORE, NEVER! AND LET DIDI SEE HOW SAD/ANGRY I AM IN ALL THIS PASS 3YRS!

Dad, Mom, Di, I dont feel like taking revenge once I became an adult, if you people really force me to do like this, it's gonna be very ........
Think about it, DIDI is a human, so do I.
I can move out this house anytime. and i dont need you guy's approval!
I'm an young adult now, for goodness sake, show me some respect that I wanted long long ago okay!
I want t be a daughter that cares for you all, cause I'm th eldest in th family
please dont force me t become a person which your dont like it.

2009-02-25T19:55:00.003+07:00

Today late for school, i should say purposly, cause my brothe used up th toliet like 1hr and he came out of th toliet is already 6+ ARGH.
Kamilia & huimin also late tgt w me. haha, we meet up each other.

I'll start with my chinese period, we watched one ghost movie called "human's meats dumpling" Trust me, its funny and disgusting. haha!
after that will be D&T, I keep sweeping th dust cause I've nothing t do, so Mr see came t me and asked me "Sherry, you finish already uh?" I replied, "already finish already" "Then you dont need t think where you want t put your electronics?" he said. "ohyah! thanks for reminding me" haha! during D&T lesson I kept disturbing Ace, &&& ACE BROKE MY WORKPIECE! thank God that Mr See still give me marks, if not I'm going t ask her t re-do for me " LOL.
EBS! Thank God also, that th access work is not so hard(: I managed t finished up th survey summary with this 2period. haha, And I also having a hard time t do th bar chart. IRRITATING! lol.
After I've finished th survey summary, i decided t move on t th next point which is typing out th proposal, Ms Ismail didnt say cannot use th microsoft letter then i go and use, at th end, i got t re-do all over again! ARGH! she told me when I'm almost done lohs! LOL
After school going t s'pore discovery centre, Its fun!
I fall in love with that Robot George, he can talk t you! he can answer your every questions~! haha! Some funny things we've done in SDC i dont remember much, haha! but at least your get th point(:
Take bus back t cchy again, started t feel like vomitting, but i dont think i have car-sick? LOL, perhaps I'm too tired(:
So after that, went home and Kamilia & Anqi(:
and that's it. byes!

2009-02-24T19:29:00.003+07:00

Well, Common test is over, next is th EBS ACCESS WORK!
ohdiediedie, I'll surely 100% struggling with that coursework.
yesyesyes, you can name me as a "Noob" in EBS pratical, cause we got t use computer t do research and all sorts(: That's why my CPA coral draw always fail fail fail.
But, no use complaining, most importantly is I should think what should I do for my access work.
After school our class going t Discovery centre, again and again. So irritating, okay never mind, I think th outing will end around 6pm?
I'll surely in dead beat tomorrow.
God, you better strenghten me tomorrow(:

Maths & D&T= CMI, really cannot make it.
There will be a miracle if i pass this 2subjects.
&&&, I PASSED MY ENGLISH! Well, just only 30/60. LOL
But I'm aiming more marks now. And I got t train myself not t write so long in th composition/ letter writing. LOL.

2009-02-23T21:11:00.003+07:00

I should not drag anymore, th more it drags, th more it hurts.
Trust me, It hurts alots.
I wanted t tell you but I dont have that courage.
Wanted t face you, but it fails at th very end.

I think, this is th best time t let each other off.
One for all. All for one. & that's it.
Just let go this time, just let go.

p.s: if you think I'm fine that just ain't true.

2009-02-22T07:46:00.004+07:00

yeah! I was involved in the combine service for ushering!
It's not tiring, but rather it's fun. And i can get this chance t know lot more people than I do(: And also thank for th Image team to help us t make-up and hair styling(: hehees. Irina and me were sitting behind th hall for th preaching, after th worship, ushers gotta chiong down t usher people out, when i ushered half way, Kejing, Anqi and dont know who, they happened t saw me at the entrance there t ushering, they kept laughing at my hair!! LOLS.
So after that will be ushers debreif, i'm not too sure what Carmen were talking about as I was busy talking t xinru on th phone. Because she wants me t come down t th 3rd floor t take photo with my caregroups and tgt with north B & D(:
Once I hang down my phone, debrief was over, so I quickly chiong t 3rd floor t meet my cg members up and take photos here & there.
Once I get there, th North B & D gals were saying "hey, what happen t your hair? you look like some how a crazy gal walking here & there" I replied " no lah, haha, it makes by th Image team" hehees, they thought i styled my hair up like this. LOL. when did I ever do that during my normal ushering duty?! LOL!
After that we went t take MRT tgt with Sarah,Ace,Anqi, Kejing, Yuqing, Bernard, Zhishen, Nicholas,Junkai & etc , Anqi alighted at orchard because she wanted t meet her parents, and th rest alighted at Ang mo kio, cause they want t have dinner. so left me and sarah in th train, we talked about some strange stuff, i dont remember much(: she told me that she's afriad of darkness while walking alone t her house, so i replied her that "dont worry gal, you so white, surely you can shine your way t your house". And she even say me back that I'm th nost whitest in th unit -.- LOL.
She dropped at Admiratly, then I droped at woodlands, and that's the end of our saturday.
p.s I love th ushering at combine service! I want t have it one more time! -.-
And photos will be uploaded when i feel like t upload(: hehees.

2009-02-19T21:54:00.002+07:00

At the first start i thought it is fun and very easy t be a follow upper and also very easy to shepherd th newbies, but now then I know it all needs time t prepare everything good for th newbies. Like shepherdings, follow uppings, check your sheeps lifes and so on.
And when your sheep's life is unstable, you still got t presuade her t come for svc/cg reguraly.
When there's really no choice, we gotta scold/talk firmly t them, which I cant do it.
And now, I know being a good shepherd is not easy, we got t relay on God more than ourselves.

My phone was confiscated by Mr Kenneth Ng, and i was "so/ not so angry" LOL
But tomorrow i can get back my phone. LOL

I really need time t train myself t be a good shepherd.
I'll try, really I will.

2009-02-18T21:31:00.002+07:00

TO : TIONG SENG PTE LTD, YANG AH KANG, SHIMIZU PTE LTD, ORCHARD HOTEL, HOLIDAY INN, SIN SOON LEE PTE LTD, WOH HUP, BATHROOM(DONT KNOW WHAT), GRAND PLAZA PARK, SERENE LAND PTE LTD, THE STELLA & TO ALL UNKNOW COMPANIES AND CONDOS!

FOR THE BENEFITS FOR ME & YOU, PLEASE GIVE ME SOME TIME T REST FOR GOODNESS SAKE, I'M A HUMAN TOO!~ DONT TREAT ME AS A ROBOT!
I'VE BEEN SO TIRED FOR THIS 3YRS JUST T HELP YOUR T SETTLE ALL YOUR DEBTS ALL THAT, EVERYTIME CAME BACK FROM HOME I ALWAYS GOT T CALL UP YOU IDIOT PEOPLE T ASK STUPID QUESTIONS. I'M A SEC 4 STUDENTS MIND YOU! I BET MY DAD MENTION BEFORE I'M A SEC4 STUDENT RIGHT, IF YOU DONT, THEN T TH WAY T HELL MAN! I ALSO GOT T CONCENTRATE ON MY STUDIES! MY NATIONAL EXAMS IN COMING!! MIND YOU!!! I CANNOT 24HRS JUST T SIT AT MY WORKING PLACE AND PICK UP ALL YOUR STUPID CALLS! EVERYTIME COMES HOME GONNA HELP YOU PEOPLE T DO PAPERWORK, PROPOSAL, LETTER FOR WORKING LISENCE FOR MY DAD'S WORKER, PICKING UP THOSE IDIOT'S CALL. I SERIOUSLY HAVE ENOUGH OF THIS! YOU PEOPLE ARE HUMAN THEN I'M NOT ISIT?!
HA, DONT ALWAYS THINK ABOUT YOURSELF BUT THINK OF OTHERS TOO KAYS YOU PEOPLE! SINGAPOREANS ARE SO KIASU! ESPACIALLY TH ADULTS! SUCKERS!
OMG! EVEN STUDENTS ALSO CANNOT SPARE. I DARE YOU, IF I SLEEP AT CLASS, I'LL TELL MY TEACHERS T CALL UP YOU REGARDLESS YOU ARE MANAGER, ENGINEERING MANAER OR WHATEVER SHITTY POSITION, AND I'LL ASK MY TEACHER T EXPLAIN WHAT'S GOING ON. I DARE YOU. TRY ME! AT TH END,I'M NOT IN TH LOSING END, IT'S YOU ARE TH ONE! CANT YOU HAVE A HEART OF ME?!
I' M A HUAMN! MIND YOU!

GET LOST NOW ALL THOSE STUPID COMPANIES OF IDIOTS.

2009-02-16T21:42:00.003+07:00

North B!

Chungcheng!

yeah!
One convert from chungcheng class 1A!
woohoo! I had realised that most of th most comes from A class. haha!
1A'09- 2ppl
2A'09- ):
3A'09- 5-7ppl?
4A'09- 4ppl
& also obviously also have different classes have Y-hopers(:

Sisters start off chungcheng is around 4members, then grow t 8 people then go back t 4 again, thank God chung cheng sisters is still growing!!
And also, i want t congrats Xueting too! she had received christ! and she's really hyper for God, while saying th sinner's prayer, she dares t say out loud!
Praise God for this hyper sister! yeah!
Chungcheng will grow! Northland will grow!!
(:

2009-02-14T16:26:00.004+07:00

I dont think I'm a good owner of my dog.

I fail t give my dog th best, i didnt give her th best out of it.

I was thinking what if there's really one day that she leave me and th family. How will it feel? How will it be? & how will it be like. I dont know, really dont know.

All I can blame is myself, all i do is 'bout myself, i fail t take good care of her. I cause her t have a high fever and almost cause till death. Because I keep forgotten t feed her medecine.

I always vent my anger on her whenever i want it. she had been my punching bag for 3yrs.

I know no matter how many time i say sorry also no use, and i dont know how t mend her hurts that I've caused t her.

Other people can take good care of their dog even they are busy but why cant I?

Why cant I be more owner-like t my dog? I seriously not a good owner.

I'm so sorry guigui that i did not give you th best.

all i think is 'bout myself. I never think of your feelings too.

I'll promise you I'll be a good owner (: trust me for this time(:

2009-02-10T15:14:00.001+07:00

I think I gotta ask kamilia here one more time ;
She cant touch christians things but why can she touch christian friends?
haha, Ace & Anqi were laughing all th way! hehees.

As like Ace said, I'm No.1 in talking back t others haha!!!
Kamilia! better answer my question hor! heeees.
byes people!

2009-02-09T20:29:00.003+07:00

I think I shall save my blog no more.
dead means dead, i give a damn no more.
Anyone t take over my blog tell me, I dont mind give you my username & password. & giving you for FREE! LOL
you can vandalize, write, scold, do, complain all you wish.
i dont care, no more.
spam whatever you want.

2009-02-05T22:19:00.002+07:00

I'm really afraid that how will people look at me when they know I'm NT.
I'm really afraid things will turn in a very different way, even what I have not expected.
I'm afraid that friends will just fade away, especially.

oh my~! what has happen t me? I have not even graduate yet and now starting t think negatively, but, I wonder & wonder, this these gonna happen in one of th day? i dont wish to. seriosuly.